Do them online:
Also just saying,
“I know I don’t want to; I’m gonna do it anyway.”
Motivation is one of those things that comes and goes. Life is like that: it’s unpredictable and up and down. We can’t let our sobriety depend on life; ultimately motivation isn’t always gonna be there, you just gotta go anyway.
I don’t say that to be discouraging - in fact it’s very liberating: you aren’t relying on what happens to you, for anything. Your sobriety is your choice and your power. You choose to be sober, and you choose to go to your meetings.
You’re a good person and you deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self. Take care and never, ever give up 