Thank you all for your kind words and anchoring support. It has strengthened my resolve to take back control of the reins that others always seem to steer me with.
I learned a lot from my recent setback and was able to peer a little deeper into who I am and what I pretend to be for the sake of others. The fact is, when I take off the cloak of addiction, I really am a f*cking unicorn and that can be both liberating and extremely alienating. People either love the way I see the world or they fiercely try to kick the magic out of my soul and force me into their perception of reality. I clearly don’t belong in the same reality as most people and I’m tired of trying to conceal my horn and hide my sparkles to make others feel better for their lack thereof. It takes far more energy from me to try and conform to a mold that I wasn’t designed to fit than to just embrace my true form.
Thank you all so much for believing in me. Now I’m going to take my newly sharpened horn and impale anyone who messes with my zen again. Here’s to getting up, gathering what’s left of my sparkle, and moving on from the relapse rainbow.
I love you guys!
Hey @Naturehippy, sorry I haven’t been much support this weekend - I’ve been working a lot. Glad you are back on your unicorn saddle again and determined to fight this fight, riding into the unicorn rainbow!
Awe, it’s okay! It was my fault for not being completely honest and giving my power away to avoid conflict. That habit is way harder for me to break then alcohol. I’m going to harness it though. hug
You can do it! I myself have just gone from feeling strong to feeling weak in a heartbeat and know that if there was wine in the house I would have gone for it. My housekeeper/sitter canceled for tomorrow. So I am left with a yucky house, dirty laundry and two small children on their day off from school. Not quite the day I imagined for tomorrow! Oh well, saying the serenity prayer, here!!
