26 days into this journey I have drunken 4 nights out of the 26 days witch is dishearting to me. I also know iv grown bcux I drank every night but now I drank one night and not for several afterwards. I just wish I knew what caused my relapes
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Ive found that i suffer from a mental complex, my mind tricks me into thinking i can handle my alcohol consumption, before i know it im blacked out and running from the cops. My last three drunks im greatfull i didnt kill any one or myself total blackout and a loose cannon. I just have to stay clear away from any form of mind altering substance or im doomed.
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You managed to sober up for 26 days! That’s awesome! You now know that your are capable of it. And if you’re capable, it means that you can do it again!
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Maybe try a meeting might help
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Aloy of ppl have said this I might look into it I’m a little weary of them still
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Nail in coffin
That’s exactly how it is u don’t get mean but I blacked out every night. It’s so bad for the health. I’ll do good only drinking once in a while them it become more and more till I’m down the rabbit hole
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I’m not going to get into the great AA debate bc there are millions of people who stay sober with no meetings, sponsor or daily program and I would love to be one of them but I am amazed at myself and others who claim they want to be sober and have tried everything and failed but won’t go to a meeting where people go to get sober. I was never going to go to AA bc I’m not that kind of drunk but one day I got so desperate I gave it a go and now I’m over 10 months free. I wish I gave it a try years ago but I knew best 
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I’m really on the verge of relapse because someone from my past keeps trying to talking to me when I told him to leave me alone already Dx
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Maybe block him. Stay sober at all costs
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Can’t hurt to try it before you write it off as an option.
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I blocked him he makes new profile to harras me and he was talking to my cousin I told he what happen and to block him and she doesn’t ugh I’m so pissed
She doesn’t understand obviously
Just do what you can to put some distance between you and them, dont let them draw you into the webs.
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I think she understands now but I feel weird around her now cause he always hits me up when we hang out and she post pictures of me
I relapsed & I feel horrible I’m tired of being so we and drinking just tired . I really want to start AA .
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Be easy on yourself
Meetings are totally worth it
Deffinetly give it a try 
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Get to a meeting it helps for me, or try something different. It makes you sick and tired, take it easy just have to take it one step at a time.
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If you want sobriety and are willing to go to any length to get it, you might think about getting yourself of whatever platform that is. Not forever, but long enough for him to get the picture and for you to get stronger in sobriety.
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26 days is epic Dusty! 
Get straight back into it…! Try meditating a little, insisting on clarity when you’re mind is elsewhere encourages mindfulness and can teach you a bit about yourself… You can also write some detailed notes to yourself on what was/went wrong, why and what you should/can do about it?
Relapses are due to the right vs wrong part of your brain having been wired wrong (often over many years), and panicking that what it perceives as good is ‘lost’. This is because evolution has taught us to prefer the easiest path. As with anything though, persistence and time will change that, as your mind grows to trust the new changes and ditch the old - and yes, changing the brain’s activity actually physically changes the brain too (crazy right?). All you have to do is care and try enough to teach it…
Growth needs time and attention! Every little thought, action and achievent now contributes to how your brain is wired and feels tomorrow. Believe 2 achieve. 
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Sorry to hear that @Elizahh 
Don’t let anybody or anything define who you are, how you feel and what you’re capable of now!!
Tell him to seriously leave you the fuck alone or you’ll contact the authorities to force him if he doesn’t get it (which you can - they’ll just be barred from contacting you or your inner circle) because you don’t have to put up with a stalking piece of shit jeopardizing your sobriety, freedom and happiness.
If it’s an ex or someone you need distance from to move on, there’s a fine line that shouldn’t be crossed like now! And if he was an abuser you should go to the police straight away anyway to at least put him on their radar - every report counts, whether it punishes such pieces of shits, helps prevent them from hurting more or contributes to vital statistics which influence our laws and society!
Let go of whatever negative emotions they stir in you, because you’re better than that and always free. They won’t effect your life like that anymore because that’s what they want, and you know better than to fall for it. The past will never be again, so focus on your happiness now and tomorrow - feel your heartbeat, breathe, smile, value your very existence and sobriety, let go and move on into the future you envision because you want to and can, no matter what little setbacks like him come your way.
And get right back into sobriety because you are worth every bit of it, always!
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