Idk, I’m struggling with self harm and other destructive behaviours. I was 4 month clean.
Then everything gets to hard bc I started trauma therapy and I relapse.
I’m so disappointed.
I really needed trauma therapy to move on with my life but o couldn’t. You have to be clean to do it. And now I failed.
It’s hard to find motivation now.
Sorry to hear about your relapse @Lilla-k 
It is hard when a relapse exposes the ugly truth of addiction and obsession. It is vicious.
Self-harm is not a behaviour I have done but if you search “self-harm”, “SH”, or similar search terms in the Talking Sober search bar (tap the magnifying glass icon), you will find many posts about it.
Don’t give up. You are not alone and there are ways to learn and grow, and find your healthy space.
Im so sorry youre dealing with that, friend. Its great that you came back, since we cant change the past, trying again is the best we can do 🩵 and its not a small thing! It takes courage to be honest and to ask for help, two of the hardedt things probably and youve done both.
Wishing you love and light, we are here for you
Thanks I will search to find motivation
Thank you 
Don’t give up friend. It’s hard. I’m sorry you were so triggered you relapsed but all we can do is move on. Three steps forward, two steps back sometimes. You’re not alone Kasja. Hugs.