Sorry to hear that. It’s a comfort that my sister is united with me this time. Usually I’m alone in my black sheep coat.
You are better off safe in the environment you have built.
I relate to your post 100%
I wouldn’t even know where to begin with my mother. I’d be lying if I told you I ever heard her apologize; like for anything at all. Simple things, and it’s not just with me. She is a toxic individual. It’s similar to your situation, my mother too is an alcoholic. Has quite a few years of sobriety under her belt, I’ve seen how she can be, how I can be sober. I’ve had close to three years sober and I truly feel that because I never got the therapy I need. I’ve got it so buried down that when I was weak those are my unresolved emotions from childhood. Being in the middle of a Effin wicked divorce ( tried to ruin my fathers character) me being a people pleaser and truth seeker my whole life, I was undoubtedly the 2 year old pawn between parents. I know how wrong my mother is about many things. I still somehow want my mothers approval. I’ve brushed aside my emotions of unresolved traumas and they get buried (why I struggling to get footing on my drinking). My younger brother is still in active addiction and I’m not sure if this actually works for him, but he doesn’t call her out when he knows that she’s wrong; it actually rips at my soul. Only made worse when I had been drinking; idk if it’s fair to call it drama.
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I’m sorry you had this shit as well. Thanks for your reply. I’m resetting after tonight…I messed myself up, but can’t be negative about it.
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Ah I’ve been drinking again since this post. Resetting tomorrow. I have hope
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So I’m day one, 18 hours in.
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