So I’m back to day 3. Since I started on here on this app I have made it to a day 5, and a day 4, and both times the weekend seemed to be my downfall. It looks like my everyday drinking has now shifted into weekend binge drinking. I keep thinking it’s ok to drink on the weekends, then I wake up feeling hangxiety and wonder wtf is wrong with me. Why do I do this to myself?
I was at work today and went into my car to go on my break and to get a coffee. Sleeping sickness by city and colour came on the radio and I sat there and started bawling my eyes out as I listened to it. I couldn’t even tell you why except it felt like my body was being flooded by 100 emotions at once. I pulled myself together and went back into work when my break was done and the irony in all that was the first thing a coworker said to me was asking me if I switched up my skincare routine because my skin was GLOWING. I felt like saying try having a breakdown in your car on your lunch break, should do the trick.
I’m not going to put a crazy amount of pressure on myself this time so I’ve decided my goal is to make it to Christmas. I’m following a gym/detox diet plan as well to get me a reset, and I’m going to give it everything I have to make it through. Here’s to 3 days in. Wish me luck
Good luck. If you want to give yourself a chance at success. You’re gonna have to change your routine up. If the weekends are your problem and you’re going out and drinking, stay home and find something to do. If your drinking at home alone, go somewhere alcohol free to break the cycle. The gym, a meeting etc. it’s not easy but it is possible. And when your body and mind have had enough, you’ll stop.
Dont over think it. Get through today sober. And dont do too much all at once. Just focus on not drinking today and repeat it to youself as often as needed. Just know you are worth this journey and its yours and yours only! Stay strong and sober
Don’t set yourself up for failure by making your goal Christmas if you haven’t yet made it to 5 days.
You only have to deal with today, then when tomorrow comes deal with it then.
You mentioned in another post about trying online AA meetings, maybe don’t try and just do. What’s the worst than can happen…
It may seem harsh but looking too far ahead is just too much for me and I’m a little further down the road.
Yeah…those first days of a quit can be quite rough, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
There’s so many strategies, so many paths, but only one tactic that works 100%: say “no” to the drink that matters…the first drink. No matter what. Everytime.
If you do this, there won’t be a second or third or eighth drink. You win.
If you say “yes”, you lose. All that’s left to be determined is how badly you lose this time.
Take heart. Willpower is like a muscle. Every time you exercise it, it becomes a bit stronger.
For me, sobriety is simple. I just have to say “no” to one drink, every single time. It was difficult at first, because everything is difficult at first, but with time and repetition, it became easier…because I became stronger.
I wish you much strength of will. You can do this.
