Idk why I drank yesterday. It was the easiest of the 5 days I had. I kept thinking about what I’d post here today. I know I just made things harder for myself. Im not a casual drinker. I drink as fast as I can to get drunk. As hard as those 5 days were I felt a quiet satisfaction with each day I ended sober. The outpouring of support & encouragement I’ve received here really helped me in my grief. One thing I did take away from staying sober even when I hurt so bad I could hardly breathe is that I can do hard things. So this is me getting back up with resolve to move forward.
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Good for you for getting back up - if it was an easy road we wouldn’t all be here! You’ve got this!
I’ve relapsed like that before; when nothing is wrong, everything outside is all pretty much calm. I just had to put chaos back in my life by taking that first drink and starting the cycle all over again. Self pity. Why o why I why did I do it…. I had to sit with those calm quiet moments and deal with the voice in my head and tell it to F**K right off and let me have peace and sobriety one more day!!! the cravings pass…. Then guess what the next day i woke up sober, then I did it over and over and over again —→> peace, sanity, clarity 
keep trying 
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did you try out a virtual meeting?
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Thank you❤️
I will thank you❤️
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Not yet but I’m going to a meeting that starts on tuesday.
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Could you send me that link again. I can’t find the post you gave it to me. Sorry I’m a newbie on this app. I’m having a time navigating it.
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Ahh thank you
I hope you give it a chance the 12 steps are life changing but as they say you can only lead a horse to drink
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Yes thank you. I’m attending a meeting tonight.
Let us know how it goes when you’re finished 