So i finally caved on Thanksgiving and had a beer. I didnt feel too bad about it cause i didnt go on a bender or everything. Decided ill only drink on special occasions but we all know how that goes been drinking way too much and have now drank 2 days in a row so im feeling like shit today. I dont want it too turn into how i was before i Decided to quit when i was going on week benders. Day one and im feeling really really depressed.
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Okay so you decided to go out and do more research and figured out what you probably deep down already knew. Once you start drinking it’s just ramp back up to where it was, and progressively get worse. So you can either stay in that cycle until you absolutely can’t take it anymore, or use what you learned and get sober for good. I’m hoping you do the latter. 
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You can’t change the past, but you can use it as experience in building a different future. You got 62 days! This is excellent. Examine the whole situation, looking for how things went sideways, and then create a plan to work with this in the future. The important thing here is that you are picking yourself back up and continuing forward. You can do this.
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In another thread, @smitty97 said - “1 drink is too many and 1,000 is not enough” and that really hit me; I too thought I could drink in moderation, and it’s just not for me. Knowing that now, I feel so much more confident to stand up to any external pressures - because it’s my choice, and I choose me.
So here we are, back in the single digits, knowing what we need to do, and how to keep moving forward 
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I can’t take the credit for the cliche you reference, I learned it in treatment and have heard it often through the years in AA meetings.
But I can say there’s a reason cliches are spoken commonly and that’s because they oftentimes are truth.
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How you feeling today? Any better?