Relapsed after 5 months of staying busy working and staying clean. Have been using for about 2 weeks now and want to stop again… I need to get back on track and stop fucking around. Have been clean for around a day and a half now and its tough
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What happened? It’s so hard, 5 months is an amazing achievement. Don’t feel too bad, seriously I dream of getting to 5 months. I’m so scared
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Seen my old dealer at the store and gave in to temptations and ended up texting his old number by memory and he answered and thats how it started rolling down hill. Fuck am i an idiot
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Update!!: Flushed the drugs and got rid of the pipe. We can do this!!
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Glad you’re back. You can do it again. One day at a time. 
No way… That’s amazing. I’m really struggling today. I’m not even looking at my sober day number anymore because it’s such a bloody battle. I know I’m doing good. I just keep thinking how sick I was. But today i have been crying a lot. I’m not sleeping well. Overall I am feeling very ok. I’m starting to wonder if I could have depression. Can heavy drinking cause depression? I don’t know, maybe I always did have depression. I am very very up and down. My family think I have autism like my son. My mind never shuts off. This time for some reason I really don’t want to drink but coming face to face with a situation like yours with the dealer I’m not sure im strong enough for that yet. I know it’s coming soon as my group of girls will Whatsapp soon for a night out. Little do they know that after every night out when I get home I open wine and drink another bottle after an already heavy night of drinking 3 drinks to their 1. I know they will support me but I’m not ready for it yet. Im getting pissed off with all my crying!! It might be lack of sleep. Sorry for blabbing on. Well done, great decision made by you.
hi @NewBeginning1 well done flushing the shit onwards and upwards feel no shame your back with us now @LadyHatt hang in there 
I’ve been very angry and upset in equal measure this week …this is early sobriety for us we can’t numb or block it out anymore. it’s tough for a reason but I’m assured it does get better. I’m just going with the yo-yo 
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TK you. I had been doing okayish some days this week then whack today it kicked at about 1pm… my head has to be tired from the constant war.
Sorry for taking up a lot of your space here… hope your doing okay today.
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Maybe let one of your WhatsApp girls know about your sobriety and they can tell the other’s 
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