Sorry to hear about your relapse @leah11 
Sounds like you still have some patterns and habits you need to change. Have you been reading? Have you joined any groups? SMART Recovery has online meetings you can try:
There are readings here:
For me personally I found the transformation didn’t really start until I had peers in recovery in my sobriety group, and I attended regular meetings and had complete honesty and accountability.
Take a look at yourself and think about what’s missing in your routine. Ask for input. You’ll find what you need, then you can make some difficult changes.