It’s been a while since I’ve been on but the willingness I’ve had to stay clean this time has been astounding to me! I’m pretty stoked that even with Fentanyl being my DOC I went to a women’s AA meeting tonight in person (for me this is a huge accomplishment as I needed to look outside the box cause there aren’t many options for NA in my area!) To say that I loved it is an understatement 🩵🥰 Then directly after was a NA meeting that was open so I hit the jackpot tonight with so much good material and positivity and love from one recovering addict to another!!! I now know that in person meetings are much better for me then just Zoom/on line ones. So I encourage you to step out of the box of what you’re used to and change it up a bit it will also help with not getting complacent. I am so thankful for all of my experiences that have got me where I am today as I’m so full of knowledge and can make better decisions for my life and bring peace and happiness to those that I love and those who love me 🩵🩵🩵 Keep going YOU GOT THIS!!!
Welcome back. Congratulations on 45 days. I am so glad you found enjoyment in AA. I am big promoter of AA. It has changed my life. I never believed life could be this great sober. Connecting with others long term or newly sober is priceless. The resources available for me an alcoholic is amazing.
The only thing I don’t agree with AA is being powerless to a drug and always saying “I’m an addict” cause I’m not that anymore! I’m powerful over everything I have a choice over and I’m just always recovering….for me personally I need to use the brighter, more positive side which is why I love SMART meetings and I look forward to getting my certification to hold my own meetings. I did like the meeting tonight though so many friendly women who were so willing to reach out and give numbers and just make it feel like home there!
I’m almost 7 years sober and I know for an absolute fact that I am powerless over drugs and alcohol. If I picked up a beer tomorrow I would be off to the races. The whole reason I got sober in the first place is because of the power drugs and alcohol had over me. If I wasn’t powerless I wouldn’t have needed to stop in the first place.
By admitting I’m powerless I am keeping myself accountable regarding drugs and alcohol. If I start thinking I’m not powerless it’s only a matter of time until I think I have control. And once I think that my relapse probably isn’t far behind.
Many people fear admitting they are powerless. They view it as weakness, but it’s not. It’s the sign of true strength to admit that. No one has ever fought drugs and alcohol and won. Sobriety stems from the surrender.
I may not have the power to defeat alcohol. But I certainly have the choice to stop fighting.
Keep going to AA. Bring that up as a topic and see what everyone has to say. I think you’ll be surprised at how much you relate to being powerless
We can just agree to disagree on that topic cause I will never view myself as powerless over it I always have a choice over whether it takes ahold of my life again. If I use all the tools I’ve learned I’m already accountable to stay sober….thats why I love the SMART meetings like I said cause they also believe the same 🩵 To each their own! Thanks for sharing