What’s up guys
In two days I’ll have hit 5 months of sobriety, it’s been a nice little journey so far and I’ve been learning quite a bit about myself in the process. As of late, I’ve come to realize just how alone I’ve been over the past few years, having been a drunk I just got comfortable with hiding away and drinking by myself until I pass out.
In turn, I’ve found myself starting to sort of try and reach out, find some new people to talk to. It’s not exactly been going so great, I find myself withdrawing, shying away like a dog with it’s tail between it’s legs. I didn’t used to be this way, I used to be very social, had people I could call on and someone was always there. However, now I’m finding myself at odds with myself, second guessing. Doesn’t really help that my previous relationship was incredibly toxic.
How to overcome this? I used to have this mentality of not really caring about what others thought, having a hard time turning that back on.