Things were going great, I felt like such a strong person for 133 days. Everything changed in a positive way. My marriage, my family was doing awesome. My husband never quit drinking and I did join him for “a beer” yesterday. It felt wrong, I felt guilty, scared, and even talked about doing it or not. “As long as you have it under control it’s fine.” Well… I drank 11 instead of one, don’t remember how I went to bed, wondering if I did something to piss off my husband again. I feel absolutely stupid. I want to be the best version of myself and its definitely not when I drink. I hate it. Why can I not just have one?!
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Because 1 is too much and a 1000 is not enough.
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Thank you for your kind words!! That’s good you were able to stop though and congrats with the race 
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Sorry to hear you had a slip as CaptAZ once we lift that first drink then its hard not to stop. maybe a meeting might help get phone numbers and mix with other sober people who have been were you have wish you well
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Ouch. A reminder that 1 eventually turns into too many. No moderating or just one for me either. Today is a new day.
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The last 20 years of my life has been filled with quitting and then having “The One”. Welcome to the club. Like any challenge that we might face. Learn, grow, accept. Why do we fall down? To learn to pick ourselves up.
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I can’t have one bc I’m an alcoholic. Drinking excessively over long periods is just what I do. Other than that I don’t look for reasons bc it would drive me crazy. I also don’t worry about not drinking tomorrow, bc the only thing I can do is not drink today. Today is finite. Today is manageable. Today is what I have.
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