I would love to explain my powerlessness on the open forum not in your DM MasterFapper, I am sure that there are a lot of other people that could benefit from the explaination.
Its pretty simple. I am powerless because once I start I can not stop. When I am in active addiction I cant stop, I am powerless over the strength of addiction. Obsessive thinking, self centered actions, picking up my DOC no mater who or what tried to get in my way. I am powerless over addiction everyday for the rest of my life. Knowing that keeps me away from that first drink or drug because I know that I can not just have one. Never in my life have i just had one, and never in my life will I.
That is a paradox of recovery, once you can see that you can not control your addiction, once you can become humble enough to admit powerlessness, you start to get your strength back. You can start to see your life from a different perspective which over time increases your power. NOT over addiction, but your internal strength and light and you are able to make big moves with your life because you are not chained down by your addiction.
Hopefully that helps you get what I meant.
