Reset clock. Dissapointed myself today

Hate this sht. Failled again after few weeks not use coke and drink in the weekend.
Im at the point that im not sure i will get sober on my own.
Really sick of the sht i do in my life.

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I sure couldnt do this on my own. It didnt matter how badly I wanted it nor how much I tried to manage, or control my addiction, I always ended up picking up. I am powerless over that shit and as soon as I was able to face that fact and admit i needed help… well thats when my life started to change.

The best part about this is you dont HAVE to do this alone. Our addicts like to keep us isolated because thats how they keep us sick. I was so over being sick, sounds like you might be too.

Hit a meeting, any recovery meeting. They changed my life.

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Hold onto the feeling of hating this shit. Remember this when the brain tells you to pick up again. Keep a list of reasons why you are choosing sobriety in hand.

We are unable to fight this addiction alone. That is why support groups and programs are recommended. Possibly finding a sponsor in real life is beneficial.

This community has been a wonderful point of stability for me. I do need to stay active here very regularly for me to reap the benefits.

Grateful that you have reset that clock. Starting on day 1 - figure out what you want to do differently in your daily routine so you keep clear of triggers and urges. Find ways to keep your mind and body busy. Immerse yourself in support and make sure you do not have any substance(s) in house or within reach.

you are stronger than your addiction and can overcome this demon. :muscle:

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If you dont think you can do this alone maybe try a meeting might help you wish you well

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Come here every day, multiple times a day. Read, particupate. Start there.

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Rik, I know that disappointment as well. Trying so hard to get free by myself. Just does not work. You know something else is needed, another tool or tools that will help you. Whether it’s meetings, a counselor, close friend to confide in and check in with, this TS forum, podcasts, quit lit, whatever it takes. You know you want to do this, and you have proven to yourself you can, even if only for a few weeks at a time. That counts for something. Build your strength and believe in yourself!:heart: wishing you well!

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None of us on this forum were able to do it on our own, that’s why we’re all here. And that’s ok to ask for help. AA and NA call it a “we program” for that reason.

I reached a point when I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. Sounds like you might be there too. Take advantage of what’s available to all of us free of charge. This forum and meetings. Try 90 meetings in 90 days (or check in here daily for 90 days) and if your not satisfied at the end of that 90 days, we’ll gladly refund your misery.

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You don’t have to do it alone… use the disappointed feelings to fuel your determination to be sober. Surround yourself with safe situations and people.
Choose sobriety every hour, every 24 hrs and soon you’ll look back and see how far you’ve come…
You’re not alone… theres a forum full of people recovering here for you.

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I won’t repeat the great advice you’ve gotten so far. Sometimes you stumble and fall. If that happens, use it as a learning device and try to avoid the thoughts, emotions, and actions that led to the fall. No one can walk the path for you, but others can walk with you. Use the resources available to find more experienced travelers.

You can do it.

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The only way out is through. Take it a day at a time and focus on getting to the end of the day and before you know it you’ll have made it a week, then two, then three, and so one and so forth. Know that life isn’t perfect but if you just manage to stay sober you have the opportunity to make things better. If you don’t stay sober , you’ve seen that movie play out before, it never ends well.

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Like so many said, you don’t have to do it alone. I will say this, you should bottle up the feeling you have right now, and if you can get more time under your belt, I promise you, Coke will smell like a gas station with a leaky pump, and you will be disgusted by the thought of it. And when you smell alcohol, you will want to vomit. I’m serious. It’s just that we conditioned ourselves, and now we have to unconditionally ourselves. We are all here for you!

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I was on and off sober for 19 years…i have 5 months sober from speed, almost 5 months sober from weed, 6 days sober from cigarettes and 5 weeks sober from energy drinks…being sober is something fragile…for everyone who suffers from addiction…be nice to yourself, be your best friend. Sending you lots of love
Remember, one minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time :blush:
I tell myself everyday that its just for today…it helps me.
Have a great day 🫶🏻

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Ain’t that the truth.
Going to meetings and doing what other sober people do seems so obvious now, just had to swallow my pride and learn a little bit of humility first.
Life changing.
Hope your keeping well BTW :slightly_smiling_face:

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How are you doing today? Were you able to do anything to help you with your sobriety?

Hows it going today?

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Yes, Rik…. Hope you’re ok!

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The best part about this is you dont HAVE to do this alone. Our addicts like to keep us isolated because thats how they keep us sick. I was so over being sick, sounds like you might be too.

Very good. :+1:

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Thanks for this. Appreciatie it.

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You said you went weeks without right? That’s amazing! Your success rate is still very high even if you slipped up one time. Try not to view things as “100% success or complete failure” - sometimes it just takes time to find our footing, and you’ve already accomplished so much. Be proud of yourself for your successes and for choosing to continue showing up for yourself by being here and wanting to keep trying. You can do this. One thing that is really helping me tremendously (alcohol is my addiction) with staying on track is listening to audiobooks that help me reshape my beliefs/subconscious thoughts about alcohol - ‘This Naked Mind’ by Annie Grace is one of the most helpful and influential books I’ve ever read. If reading/listening to books works for you, definitely consider checking that one out. Try not to beat yourself up; you can absolutely do this, and a mistake is not a reason to throw in the towel. Sending positivity and healing! :mending_heart:

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I really appreciate this seniment too.

I agree witj others that it does help so much have a place and people to check in with. Ive been using this app, and have previously done AA…anything that helps you stay sober. I find checking in here daily, helps me keep my “head in the game” in a really SIMPLE way. There are defs other tools and resources you can tap in to, but this place has really helped me.

Find your triggers (what triggers you? When? Whats your access look like?) And make a list of them. Which ones seem to be the biggest. List your “tools” and tjings you can do to deal/manage those triggers. I actually found doing this in the early days when you still crave is so helpful. This place has become a touchstone in my tool belt. Havent had a craving in ober a months but I check in here. Try to check in for myself, read other peoples stuff and give some feedback if I feel it could be helpful…

These bouts of sobriety youre having are STEPPING STONES. They are a big deal. If being on your own isnt working, dont be on your own. Xo. We here!!!

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