Reset number 7 for me, in 12 months.
Trying really hard not to beat myself up, I’m just so damn disappointed in myself.
Took myself to the gym this morning, determined to just get through today without a numbing agent.
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Welcome back.
We are all learning, slipping is part of life. One day it’s going to stick so don’t stop trying, I’m super glad you’re here.
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Just keep trying…I am 10 in 10 months.
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Good, because a relapse is robbing you of a wonderful sober life! Now, dust yourself off, grant yourself some grace and get busy living a sober life.
We are all here to help you. Next time you want to pick up, come here first. Talk about why you want drink. Let us, help you!
You deserve a sober life.
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Lucky number 7,
Make it the last, who cares how many times you reset, the last one is the only one that counts,
Make the last one stick by thinking about your previous errors, learn from them owning your mistakes is great, now to learn from them to prevent them from happening again
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Hang in there. You are seen and heard here. Sending lots of Hope !
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Thankyou for ur kind words 
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Thanks for hearing me
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@Alycia - I am sorry for your relapse. At the same time, I agree with @Thirdmonkey. Next time, use your tools, pick up the phone, attend an AA meeting (they have them on zoom 24/7) and come on this platform. I have had so many beautiful people support me when I’m triggered to relapse. Don’t let a possible relapse steal your joy. You can do it and I believe in you!
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In one word that is sobriety.
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You stumbled and fell. It’s part of the process - and what’s more important, you thought about it, put it into words. It’s like riding a bike or a horse, driving a car, or just walking - how many times didn’t we f**k up until getting the grip of it? Don’t punish yourself. Just think about what led to it and add it to your resources. Part of a way too big learning curve. All the best.
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You guys are right. I just get so caught up in work stress and trying to numb it. I forget how bad it feels.
I feel so good when I’m sober. I get big chunks of time and then just crumble. I’ve gotta use some damn tools. I know what I need to do, I’m just so busy and exhausted it’s just so easy to fall into the alcohol helps me loop.
It’s not helping. It’s taking everything away from me.
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You are right.
I am starting to see my triggers. I just am so exhausted and busy. I find it so hard to implement the things that will keep me sober.
But alcohol is robbing me of enjoying my life. Thanks for hearing me out, and thanks for the kind words
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It’s a bummer. We’ve all been there. But you picked be yourself up and started again. That’s what matters. Learn from the mistakes. And keep pushing forward. You got this.
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Hi @Alycia - Remember what you said. This is life or death. Don’t let the devil take everything away from you. My job is super stressful (healthcare) and I can’t stand it! I’m suffering, but I can’t let the devil win. I could lose everything. I almost lost my marriage. This is life or death.
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@Alycia. Not sure how you feel about trying AA but it has been my lifesaver this time around. I have an awesome home group and my Sponsor is ALWAYS there for me. Im at 37 days now and have a ton of Peace and Serenity. Maybe give it a few tries at least and see if it is something that might help.
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I have tried AA in the past. I’m not religious, and I live in an area with a much older demographic. I find it hard to connect and relate. I need to find some alternate groups, it’s probably going to be online, as There isn’t a lot available to me in my town/city.
I know I need a social outlet. And a support network. This is where I fall down, I get time under my belt and I get really lonely. So I go out and drink.
Or I get stressed and I don’t have a group to turn to.
I’m just so busy and exhausted from working full time and being a mum, and I just can’t find time to find those things I need to help me stay sober.
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Third monkey always finds the good in our doubts… thanks buddy or girl
I went to the gym today for the first time in months!! Felt good!! Your on the right path today stay strong girl
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Thankyouuu 
Up again for the gym this morning stead of feeling guilty and awful about my choices yesterday. One foot in front of the other.
Have a great day/night x
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