Hi I’m Maddie. I don’t know if anybody will see this but I’ve been struggling by with my addiction to cocaine for over a year doing it all day everyday and now I have completely before addicted to my bad habits or not eating because I never have an appetite or becoming so depressed and suicidal. 5 minutes sober.
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Hi Maddie, I’m glad you posted here. I completely understand those feelings you are struggling with right now. You do not have to do this alone. There are so many avenues of help available. We will be with you each step of the way as long as you want us to. Search out meetings of Narcotics Anonymous near you. Keep posting here. Talking it out can really help and there are a lot of folk here with the experience that can help. 
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Maddie
My heart goes out to you, it saddens me when I hear people out there that are suffering just like I was. The pain is real and the feeling of hopelessness just won’t leave. There is hope and love in these rooms! I had to embrace a force bigger than I was from a spiritual perspective. Finding real people that understand my struggles without judgement was the beginning. You can’t fix a problem in your own head, using your own head. That’s sort of what got me where I am/was. Look for love and resources from people that know the journey to sobriety. If you are truly desperate and ready to change find the next step in the path of sobriety by committing yourself to change. I did it, and I know people that have to. There is hope!
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Welcome Maddie, we see you 
. There are others on here who have struggled with the same addiction, that can give you personalised advice and support. As Sassyboomer says, are you trying with NA?
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Hey Maddie, so glad you reached out. I hope you will stick around.
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Welcome Maddie! Glad you found us and you’re no longer alone in the fight. I can relate to using cocaine on a daily basis. I got to the point that I needed it just to clean my house or do the dishes. In reality, that was all in my head and just an excuse to keep using. What helped me was to make an action plan and put in the work every single day. I have to put the same effort into my recovery as I did into using.
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Welcome Maddie! That sounds so so hard 
A lot of us here know what it’s like to suffer, and we’re here to support any way we can. Some days it’s truly one minute at a time, and each minute is a triumph. It does get easier, but that can be hard to see at first. Please keep reaching out and finding support however feels right for you. You can do this.
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Welcome to the community 
It’s great you are here, there is so much support here for you please keep coming back, read lots around the forum and reach out like you have today 
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Welcome to the family! Be active here it will help.
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Hi Maddie. We all see you. What an amazing first five minutes reaching out to this awesome, supportive place. You are not alone. You are so worth the work you will pour into staying sober.
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Thank you for reaching out Maddie this is the first step, im sending you the biggest hug right now, let us take your hand and help you into sobriety, we are all in this together
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Hows it going?
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Thank you so much for this message. It means so much to me
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