In my road to recovery now on day 7 the urge gets easier to battle. The next few trigg days i gota watch out for are 10 and 12. But in the middle of it all everytime i do no fap i do get feelings of being down. I know its in the rear view but its still sad an frustrating looking back that this problem was in full effect when i was with my girlfriends. The worst feeling ever is not being horny when its with a real woman especially one your with. Yep they got frustrated an we had to split because i didnt know how to battle this addiction to porn an it wasnt fair to either one of us. What was more sad to me they didnt really try and understand what i was going through. I just want to heal so porns in the rear view an i wont have to feel weird or nervous or explain this predicament to any future love interest.