I wasn’t in my feelings yesterday, because of boredom and loneliness for a couple of hours. And I already had some stupid thoughts of smoking a big fat joint to ease everything away. I’m 2 weeks sober now so I know that my body got detoxed for 50% of the 30 days with the THC still in my system. Later, during the day, I recieved such good news, so good that it gave me and my partner a natural high. And because of that high I reaaaaally wanted to smoke, like my partner as well. And we really we’re so close on the edge to go buy hash at the coffeeshop. And we both just knew from eachother how bad we wanted to do it at that moment. Usually, I used to be the weaker person from us both to say “Fuck it, let’s do it!!!” But something really changed inside my brains and I started to think of aaaaaall the hell and consequences that I was going to get again, if I would fall for it again. But, I didn’t… I‘ve choose to stay away from it and realized that all of these emotions would fade away in a few minutes and that the consequences would be terrible. How proud can a person be on herself?? What a moment of victory! 
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Congrats that’s awesome! I went through that as well. I’m just hit 67 days and I can’t believe I’ve made it this far! My mindset has changed and it’s gotten easier to refocus and say no. Good job on holding yourself accountable and sticking with it!
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Thanks! And well done for yourself as well!!!
The longer we stay sober, the more you learn about yourself and your feelings, isn’t it amazing? And keep going, I’m proud of you. Idk what your DOC is but every addiction is a terrible prison, and only YOU have the key to free yourself out of it. So keep going!!!
I’ve got a list of docs and hang ups that I’m working…most recently THC.