I was sober for a year and a half and then began drinking again last January. Over the year my drinking has worsened, more blackouts, more poor choices, and I just can’t keep doing this to myself. I am scared of giving it up due to social situations. My future in laws drink and have a normal relationship with alcohol and they don’t know that I was ever sober or have a problem. Concerts, holidays, anything, I’m scared of letting it go. I deserve better for myself. I’ve gained weight and just generally am not in a great state of health bc of it. I wish this wasn’t a problem for me 
I’m also only 24 and I need this to stop now before it gets a hell of a lot worse. I want to have babies and be a good mother and good wife I have to kick this
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I was twice your age before I gained the insight /Self awareness you have and truly believe that one day soon your gonna be doing OK. Please don’t lose the next 24 years of your life like I did it will never get any better or any easier.
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Thank you so much for commenting and sharing. I feel so alone and it makes me happy to be able to have an outlet on here to talk about this shit. I hope I’ll be okay. If I got sober before I can do it again
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Welcome back 
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I hear you…the bottom line is however much youd like to be a normal drinker some of us just arent and can never be…i think the key here is to be honest about that to yourself and those close to you…you might just find if people know theyl be supportive of you
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There are many people like you at this young age that have problems with alcohol ore drugs the same like you. You find them here and everywhere in the world. But the crazy thing is that when you are struggeling, we think we are the only one! We think everyone can drink normally. But we only see the outside of how people behave. Like the other way around: nobody beside my husband and my kids knew about my drinking problems. When outside my house I drank “normal”.
We can’t fill in how others live, but can only reflect on ourselves. How do you wanna live your life? I think you know.
I try to see it as an allergy sometimes. Like a lactose allergy? You can’t drink milk, so you drink something else because otherwise you go sick.
Alcohol is poison to me in many ways and I think it’s poison for every living creature.
I envy you for having the chance to change your life at this young age! It took me many years more to decide I had enough of it. But so happy I let it go eventually.
So welcome to this sober tribe! We are with many! Try to focus on today and letting go of the poison today, the rest of your life is to far away!
When you have more sober days again you will get a different mindset and thought about your formal “friend alcohol”. But for now focus on today and get trough it sober 
It’s only 24 houres, you can do it!
Join me!
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Hi @mrm0808, hope you’re hanging in there. The community here is amazing, I was feeling alone too but the more I read people’s posts here and talk to them the stronger I feel. Hang in there, everyone here cares and wants you to succeed 
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Glad to see you Mel. Thanks for sharing and happy to be on this road with you. You’ll find a way to make this sober thing work. Actually for me concerts, holidays, anything has gotten so much better without the need to drink or drug myself. It took me a while to see that though. But it’s true. Life’s so much better like this. Also with folks around me who still do drink. BTW, it won’t be a problem once it’s gone. Never again friend. 
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I think that’s the hardest pill for me to swallow is that I can’t ever be a normal drinker. But I am too scared to keep pushing the boundaries. I don’t want to lose my friends, family, livelihood, etc. to something that is in my control. This shit is not easy but it’s worth it! Thanks for the comment!
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Thank you so much for sharing, it feels so good to have a community that I can talk to who understands. I made it the first 24 hours! I’m having cravings but I’m kicking them to the curb. Thank you for the support and words of encouragement 
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Hi! I’m doing okay today, better than yesterday. This community has been awesome and always makes me feel better. Thank you for the comment and support. It means so much!!
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I know Mel, it is hard to accept but as i tell myself drinking is hard too so its kinda pick your hard. We are all here to support you though . Sending hugs
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I’m so glad you’re doing better! You’ve got this! Sending you hugs and a flower 
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It is a hard pill to swallow at first, but once you accept it it truly is freeing. No more bargaining, no more obsessing. Just cut alcohol out. It is just one type of beverage. On this app you have hundreds of people who did just that and we continued to live our lives. I promise you, you cam do it.
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Reading this hits close to home. I have been trying to get sober since I was 24, and now I’m 31. I have relapses that only last a day or two but the damage is immense in that short time. My father has been sober for over 20 years and he told me that he attributes his ‘survival’ over the disease of addiction to him identifying it as a problem early in his 20s. None of my uncles are living as they never sought help for their addictions. So, you have already made progress if you look at it from that perspective. I’m trying harder than ever to get sober today, the pain is just too much. I’m always so envious of people with long periods of clean time. I’ve never been able to adhere to a program, myself.
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