That is a great insight at the age of 30, I was 50 before hitting the brick wall so if nothing else, you are a good 20 years ahead of me!
Please do not apologize, there are many on here for whom English is a second language and we all appreciate the effort you put in! If you’d rather communicate in your native language, I am almost certain you can find a fellow native on here
Well this just happened in the depths of it all I couldn’t go 36 hours without a drink. The last 300 days have been hard, emotional, weird, exhilarating, fun, exhausting & amazing.