Some of you may remember my previous post about my personal “rebirth” when I hit 9 months sober and how I committed to having 3 more rebirths to honor my 3 children. If I can make it through all 4 “rebirths”, I will be 3 years sober and hopefully fully recovered from ever having the desire to go back again.
That being said, I am proud to say I have now officially hit 1.5 years (18 months) sober and completed the second rebirth in honor of my oldest daughter. 
She and I have gotten so much closer over the last year and a half, and I am glad I have been here with her with a sober mind as we have had to do a lot of healing from trauma together.
There are still a lot of issues I have to work through and deal with, but I have a greater sense of confidence and self worth now that I have been facing all of my problems with a clear mind rather than a crutch.
Some days are harder than others, but I feel like I am finding much more equilibrium in life.
My greatest joy has been in mending my relationship with God during the process. Alcohol was keeping my consciousness turned off. Once I got to a point of being fully present and aware again, I rediscovered my faith and began to witness signs from God in the language he speaks to us through.
So all in all, I feel blessed. Blessed for awareness, blessed for sobriety, and blessed for living presently everyday with my kiddos.
