I will ask a counter question, how will you have fun with a drink? If you know it’s never just one, then you know how it ends up. You have written about how horrible drinking makes you feel. And the way it makes you behave. That is not fun!
Re upcoming social events… For your girls night, speak to your girls. Tell them you need to be sober right now and ask if you could do something different, maybe hit a spa in the day time. If they just want to hit bars it’s ok to take a raincheck!
It’s ok not to go to family parties and weddings too if you want to be sober and you think going will risk that. Or you can just leave early. It will get easier to be around these things in time but you don’t have to make it harder for yourself than it needs to be.
I’m 30 and I’ve been sober nearly 9 months. My social life has changed but I’m good with that. I am fitter, healthier, and finally starting to work on some of my mental health issues I always used to try and drink away.
There’s a book called This Naked Mind (also and audiobook and a podcast) which I would recommend. Also read here, lots, use the search bar and reach out when you need to.
This thread is a really good place to start, if you haven’t found it yet: