Day 6 and I’m constantly tossing and turning when I go to sleep running over the many mistakes I’ve made in my life while drinking, but I am doing something about it know and changing what I can.
Just can’t help thinking that my previous mistakes will haunt me forever.
Thanks TS
There’s a saying in AA " we don’t regret the past nor chose to close the door on it" so that means talking it through with a professional or working a 12 step program. Personally I prefer the later as it’s free and another alcoholic understands.
I had what some might say a traumatic life and ruined a lot of relationships with friends and family along the way but with practice I don’t carry it around, today is now and now is the time of improvement.
Thank you so much for your words and guidance, you have made my day and given me hope.
I know the feeling. For me I think of the saying “first things first”. My “first thing” is living constructively today (which includes working my recovery here and in my recovery group), so for me, the past has a lot of things I regret, but they are not my “first things”. “First things” is about what’s now, what is first in my mind today.
You are not alone 
Things will get better my friend. Cold comfort right now, but comfort all the same.
Any mistakes you made are just that. You are not a mistake however, and you are not your past.
In time, learn to forgive yourself. Learn to love yourself. The pain and the memories will give way to the new you. In the meantime don’t beat yourself up too much!
Each day you log in is one more day away from the past and one more day toward amends to yourself and others. Sending care. It gets better … one day at a time. 
Thank you so much Matt, I really like the way that centres my thoughts by associating my “first thing” with the here and now
The reassurance is a light in my life, thank you