It’s my second day alone and im feeling very bad, i dont know how much i can resist without nobody looking after me. I am scheduling as many days and nighst out as possible just to be around people but social situations dont really make my mental state better. Im sorry in advance if i fuck up…
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Perhaps try to find as many distractions as possible. Binge TV shows, play videogames, make crossword puzzles, read books, anything to keep your mind of self harm. And put away all sharp objects in a hard to reach place, for example under a couch
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I am sorry you are struggling. I hope you get through the day, you can do it.
When I read this sentence I thought, fuck, close that door. Quickly. I don’t want to be rude or mean but leaving the door wide open was never a good idea for me. Was like, setting up a plan to relapse.
Come here, read, write everything out what’s on your mind. There is always someone awake and most likely someone who has gone through similar things. We are not alone in this. And only by opening up, admitting that I needed help, being vulnerable, I was able to see that many ppl have similar feelings, problems no matter what the outside might say.
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How you doing? You dont have to be alone reach out and talk to somebody just dont put yourself through the hurt even if its just msging on here
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Im feeling so numb and empty… literally on the edge, i dont even know whats stopping me right now. I tried everything, i watched everything that exists on netflix, i went around, ate all the comfort food, cleande the whole house, spoke with people, and im still here about to mess up.
I really dont know what to do right now and at this time in the night theres not even a hotline to call…
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So what’s up? I don’t have any experience with self harm. But others here do. You must feel really terrible to want to harm yourself. I’m wondering what that will accomplish?
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Well, best case scenario… i die, worst case, i clean myself up and sleep for 18 hours… my post-cut sleep is always the best, i dont dream, dont have nightmares, take 5 seconds to fall asleep. I know its “useless” from a realistic point of view, but what does any addiction really accomplish? The rush, the euphoria, and the calm
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Yeah im sorry i think this only applies in the US, i dont live there(not even uk and ireland), thanks anyway.i searched for helplines in my country but they all stop at 10pm ahah, very useful. Its 2 am right now.
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what country you in?
Italy, trust me theres nothing.
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I never been to Italy. I’ve always wanted to go there. It sounds like a wonderful country to visit. I’m in the southwest USA
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Yeah its cool to see once in a while or on vacation… not that good to live in haha. Southwest? Must be hot
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Can you try distracting yourself by reading the gratitude thread Daily Gratitude List #2 - #2254 by Dazercat It’s a pretty cool thread.
Or the meme thread for a laugh or the nature thread. Great pics on there.
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I’m in northern Arizona. Up in the mountains so we are much cooler up here. But your right. most of the southwest Is very hot.
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I’ve done Germany. France. Austria. And I love Great Britain. That’s my favorite.
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Oh cool, i havent traveled much
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Would some of the techniques for alcohol addiction help? ‘Playing the tape forward’, you would have cuts to hide for weeks, scars that u have to explain or hide for the rest of ur life, and still the negative feelings that u were trying to escape. I self-harmed with cutting when younger, and still ‘head-bang’ occasionally now. PM me if u would like.
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Hey Enea, how are things? Give us an update.
One thing you might not have had enough time to learn is: pain passes. Even if it’s really really bad: it changes again, eventually.
I’m 34. I believed my whole life that when I would feel shit, which was a lot, and very, that this was what I was. This was my life. Life in general. Even when the shit-ness would ease up, depression often goes in cycles as you might know, I would be stuck ruminating about it. Why me? What did it say about me? That I had this problem? Was so different from the other people who seemed to just be living their lives? I would not let myself make new experiences, so stuck was I and so natural was it to my to equate the essence of my being with the intense experiences of psychic pain I was going through.
This changed for me in my recovery. I still feel bad. Like today. Life is shit today. I have had a fight with my boyfriend. BUT even if this destabilised me, even if now I worry that it’s all for nothing and everything is bad and wrong, I can remember that some things, most things will be the same when my mood changes again. Not everything is lost even though my mind tells me, because I’m so upset. I remember that pain passes. Then I can deal with my issues better again.
I don’t know if you can relate to this. I hope you can.
I can give you the advice to stay in the moment and find small beautiful things in your current life, as it is, that exist alongside the pain. Find something to be grateful for right now. And feel that gratitude and that blessing. Your health, your new toothbrush, your pet. Anything.
Wishing you the best my friend!
Where in Italy are you? We Germans are obsessed with all things Italian, don’t know if you knew that! 
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