2 days down the drain
It’s sad you feel so down. I’m sorry you’re having a shit time. Sometimes I have a very shit time. Sometimes I lasts weeks or months. When I was younger it lasted years. Just like you I thought of ending it all many many times. I’m sure a lot of ppl on here have that experience.
I’m glad I never did. I always believed that there’s enough love and beauty in the world to continue trying. I believe that’s true for everyone, in their own lives.
When you feel so down, give yourself permission to comfort yourself. Don’t give yourself permission to injure yourself further. Big hug. 
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Hi Ian, it sucks you didn’t get called in to work the role you wanted. You must be feeling frustrated and I can understand how it might seem like indulging your addiction would make that go away. It won’t though; it will just continue an unhelpful cycle.
There is a way to break the cycle though and it starts with reaching out for help. There is 9-8-8, the help line (you can text or call). You can also search “self harm help” or similar search terms and there are usually resources to help you find support.
It takes effort to break the cycle but the good news is it is possible. Don’t give up.
I feel depressed and feel like self harming right now
Its because im getting so fucking sick and tired of my job changing my schedule and now cut me down to 8 hours a week now due to me taking a vacation day to work the polls which never ended up happening and because of that they never switched my day back to Sunday this current week so now im stuck fucking working on my fucking day off 2p-6p and im honestly thinking of not even fucking showing up for that shift because i am so fucking sick and tired of this happening and it infuriates me because it happens every fucking time to the point to where it infuriates me to the point where i cannot take this and want to seriously quit at this point
You there still
No one fucking cares
Self harm is not going to change anything in your life. If your job life is bothering you, you need to have a think over what you can do to change it. Disappearing into addictive behaviours won’t help in any way. It’s an illusion. Get this lesson and try to stay in reality.
There’s nothing i can do and this has been weighing down on me all night you don’t understand how much this has been bothering me overnight i even cried im getting to the point where i might just quit or tell my manager off and say messing with my schedule is wrong and i dont give a rats ass even if it gets me fired or just end it all you know what i mean by that
You realise how insane it is to consider ending your life over job schedules yes? Good.
You feel stuck, but you aren’t. You’re just emotionally so tense and heightened that it feels like you got no control. But you do. You can start by not killing yourself and not doing any self harm bs. Then maybe have a cup of tea and a meal and do something that’ll make you feel better. Then when you’ve calmed down and feel better I suggest you try and think how you can approach changing your work problems.
Good luck!
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