Another wisdom nugget, idle hands are the devil’s workshop. If youre not being productive, that’s when temptatuon strikes.
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Haha, I have heard you say that before but I have not really applied it to myself as I should have just yet. Today might be the first time I truly understand it…and I fully agree. I have several things on my to-do list; maybe I should go do a few of those.
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Day 15…
However it’s been some eventful 2 weeks. So I can’t take a lot of credit.
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2 weeks is great! What’s been working for you? Staying busy is always helpful for me.
Got to say, it has been real stressful lately. Masturbated today. Used triggery material. I think im going to add another goal on my counter for specifically Masturbation. I need to refocus. Wasted enough time this morning looking at trigger images. Cant have this spiral into a full blown episode with me on websites jumping from video to video.
I need a pep talk… 
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Which pep talk you want then Rob?
The nevermind, at least you are on top of it and know to strengthen your resolve now.
Or the truth and tough love one?
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Been going through it myself bro, there is woman everywhere i look, kinda gets tougher the longer without pmo. Just dont binge brother.
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Thanks for this thread, another good one to help me in recovery. 20 days sober and struggling. God bless you all
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@DungeonMaster you are such an awesome person dude. Don’t forget it. Don’t forget you were able to long periods of sobriety. Don’t forget that no matter what you are always beloved by Someone. Prayers and completely understanding from Spain 
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Yeah, truth and tough love is definitely what i need. 
Thanks @Bomdhil. I need all the prayers!
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Thanks bro for encouraging words. Well I guess just staying busy. I’ll have some idle nights soon. Let’s see if I survive.
You’ll be ok Rob, you know you will!
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Play the tape through Rob. Where does it get you? It’s a step backward and all that stuff that is stressing you out is still there staring you in the face when it’s done.
I’ve been struggling too. Tiptoeing around acting out without actually crossing my bottom line. There’s always those little substitutes out there. The things that get our hearts racing, that familiar high of lust. It’s not unnatural to feel these feelings. There’s no cause for shame. With us, it’s just that there’s no controlling it once we’ve opened that first browser tab.
Choose the next correct step instead. Go for a run, get some nature therapy, find a self help book, reach out to a friend, consider a meeting, call upon your higher power in whichever fashion you commune with it. It’s a choice. Every action is either a step in the right direction or toward acting out.
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Stick with it buddy. Just focus on how many good days you have had and compare that with where you would be right now if you weren’t working on recovery at all.
Have you been using all the tools in your toolbox?
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I definitely have not. My routine has been jacked up this winter. Baby doesnt sleep well, and the snow stopped me from running for a solid month. Getting back at it today.
@Mtrav0040 youre totally right. I need to connect to my HP. Its been lacking.
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As my man TobyMac would say, “We lose our way, We get back up again.”
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Remember God Loves You and he wants to forgive you “the righteous will fall 7 times” he know that we are imperfect due to Adam and Eve do beat yourself to death literally Lol just a joke but yes Jehovah hates what is bad so keep praying and keep putting forth effort you got this
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Why now my dear sober-twin @DungeonMaster, how could you do this to me 
? Have you forgotten we were supposed to be celebrating all the milestones together 
?
You just “borrowed” me 55 days that I don’t want now 
. Just know I won’t be “paying” you back 
and I won’t be “collecting” more from you again 
.
Jokes aside bro, please be strong. Don’t dwell too long on the recent shortcomings. Please, if at any time you need someone to vent to or share personal struggles with, I could be here for you. I’m also a father of 3 hyperactive kids with a super-stressful work life, so I could possibly relate.
Cheer up bro, we can definitely beat these shits.
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I dont feel like i relapsed on my main addiction, pornography. Definitely binged on lust and Masturbation. I created a separate counter for that. Still working on being porn free.
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Well, you can give it a shot maybe it will work for you. It didn’t work for me last year when I tried to seperate the two. I was doing well for not watching porn but occasional masturbation eventually led me back to it.
My advice will be to confront the two together.
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