Actually you are doing what needs to be done. Unless we put all we have on this case, we will never free ourselves. Conceiving brighter days needs labour at first
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Welcome! And let us fight toguether in this battle.
Today I reached, thanks to God, my 23 days sober
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Doing great everyone here! Just reached my 40 day mark this morning. Feels amazing. Going to reach 90 and then on. We can do this together.
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40 days is awesome. Great job!!!
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I have been struggling with porn since I was 12 and caught a glimpse of a pornographic movie at a motel. At 14 I was masturbating at least once a day thinking about girls. Then at 18 I bought pornographic magazines. At age 20 I was living with Mom and started ordering pornographic movies twice a month and hiding the cable bill. I lied to my mother about it. She even had an argument with the cable company and thatâs when I had to confess. At age 31 I was living with my mother to take care of her with her muscle condition at an apartment building. I was doing a church service for the people in the building who didnt have transportation to get to church. While I was doing the service every Sunday from age 33 to 37 I was watching free porn on my tablet. I havenât watched porn in quite awhile but when I feel lonely I turn to masturbation, when I get my heart broken I turn to masturbation, when I canât sleep I turn to it. I am currently a choir member in my church and still slip with masturbation. I feel like I am never going to get this monkey off my back.
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You can and you will. Youâre in a good place here. There are so many of us who have your same struggle. Search the threads. Talk with us. Learn from your relapses and know your triggers, stay busy and exercise. Youâve got a good start. Keep it up!
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Day 4 lust free here. Got a doctorâs appointment tomorrow and then going to buy a journal from ebay to help write about my lust issues, go through my history with it and the lessons I learn each day from my past. Plus every Thusday I go wiith members of my church to a place called Celebrate Recovery where they have people going through the program giving testimonies.
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@rbycouch way to go! Glad for you 4 days is a big deal! Stay humble and alert to your triggers.
Hey friends, I unfortunately relapsed last night, despite packing away my laptop and I use an app to block browsers on my phone. I relapsed into self gratification and fantasy. Even though I did not look at porn. I can access memories in my own mind, so I carry my drug with me!
I want to start over. I have started an SA group (Sexaholics Anonymous) Group in my area, for the moment itâs only 2 of us. My cousin and myself.
Anyone else joined an SA group and can share a bit about how it has helped you?
I am getting back up and resetting my Sobertime app.
We cannot get out of this thing without others and without meeting together. I am realising this for myself.
I want to connect with God and pray more. I realise I donât pray very much and then itâs no wonder I fall. I want to be honest with God about everything!
May today be a day of victory. I want to practice what I preach and do what I say I will!
iwillwin
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Iwillwin, i canât count how many times I have relapsed but I never threw in the towel i have been trying to do a journal and am a little OCD so want the journal to not have scratch outs, white out marks, or misspelled words at all. Hoping this time I can take my time with new journal and be able to get it right. God doesnât walk away from us if we sincerely try to make the effort to break our issues. Hope you can do it, just put it in Godâs awesome hands.
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Seems like a recovery journal would be the perfect place for scratch marks, white out and errors.
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@rbycouch thank you so much! Keep up the fight and keep journaling, I also started a journal, it helps. Will do my best to check in here after work. Good to hear from you!
Welcome! Hope u find hope here too Anon1!
Had a bad night and couldnât sleep. Almost slipped and used self-gratification to help me sleep. I fought the urge, but it was hard. Midnight will be first week lust free. Longest I have gone is 400 days without slipping so got a long way to go. The porn I havent watched in forever its the self-gratification I need to overcome.
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rbycouch, keep going! Itâs not worth it to give in. Last night I kept myself pure and it so worth it. We easily forget the destructive power of porn. In the moment of temptation it seems like a wonderfully exciting idea to browse and look at porn, but remember the last time you looked and how crap it made you feel afterwards! The shame, the depression. I have actually pictured hanging myself after doing porn. So what is actually in it for me - absolutely nothing! A short time of excitement. It is good to be sober and stay sober!
May God help you today and tonight!
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Made it 10 days lust free. Iâm an avid reader and havenât been reading much lately, but got back into it. I try to find things like watching something spiritual on television, reading, or working on my journal as distractions to wanting to stimulate myself. For now doing well because I know God is guiding me every step of the way. Right now I am going to enjoy some Jeopardy.
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Hi Everyone,
I made it to day 3 sobriety from porn. Self-gratification has still been a problem. So day 0 then regarding self-gratification. Normally SG goes along with sexual thoughts. I am praying to God everyday that I can stop with this habit. What helped me today was after work - I felt like I was gonna get a migraine, so I messaged my accountability partner to shut down my online apps with Boomerang:
https://useboomerang.com/
I shut down my laptop and went to sleep. Woke up later clean.
I am normally triggered when I am tired / sick / both.
I listened to an SA meeting today and yesterday on YouTube:
Listen Here
This is a brilliant session to hear!
Right now I am sober and thatâs what matters.
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Goodnight everyone
Nice job getting to day 3, no porn!
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Hey, I am a Christian guy too. For 3 months I was able to get free of porn. But some sad things have happened to me and I just couldnât resist. I need some advice
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