Hi Jane good to see you around. I know you’ve been battling this for a while and I can hear how frustrated you are. That’s a hard space to be in; you’re going through a lot.
But you’re not giving up. You are willing to do what it takes. When you choose to put your sobriety as your top priority and every day you say, I don’t worry about the future but I am not going to drink today, you will succeed.
You’re right that AA will help (or another similar program). Have you looked at some of the other recovery programs here? There are a few different styles of recovery program; over the summer you shared that sometimes the repetition of the AA meetings you were attending made you get frustrated. There are different styles of recovery program and others you may find speak more naturally to you:
Resources for our recovery
Good seeing you Jane! Take care and remember: you’re a good person who deserves to have a healthy, sober life, and to feel good about herself. You deserve that. You can have it.