In a little over 2 hours, I will be 4 days sober.
My last actual drink was around 11 am Thursday morning before I was involuntarily committed.
It took me 9-10 hours to sober up.
Today while in the car the radio was on. For the first time in a long time I could actually FEEL something. I felt a real feeling and emotion. It made my soul happy. It was like a small glimpse of myself slowly coming back.
I’m going to chase that feeling and use it as my motivation to stay sober.
A few weeks ago my husband and I were drinking together and he said something to me that I really understood.
“My true soul is in the bottom of this glass, alas, I’ve drowned.”
I never want to have to feel or understand those words again.
I will be 35 in a few short months and the last 8 years have passed me so fast.
I want to feel alive for the rest of my life every single day.
Just sharing some late night thoughts.
Another day in the books. Keep going. 
. Four days is a great start.