Hi everyone. Hope you’re all OK. 
I was wondering I y’all think it might be a good idea to start a daily diary in which I write down all my compulsive behaviors and addictive consumptions. I was thinking about it hoping that “exposing” myself would trigger me and force me to change. I don’t know if it’s a good approach but as I’m very lonely on a daily basis, I’ve nobody to fight for, expect myself. And in two years, I still didn’t feel I was important enough to fight for myself… So nothing really changes except my problems’ awareness but that’s not enough… 
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Absolutely! I think that is an amazing idea. I’m kinda new to this forum but I have to say I really appreciate your post. Good luck but I have a feeling you don’t need it. You’re on the right path just by recognizing your faults on your own and to come up with this journaling idea, you’re proving your strength! I may do the same. Thank you.
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If it works for you. Why not?
And you are worth fighting for. It’s a form of self love.
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Thank you very much for your motivating answer I’m gonna do it and stick with it. Hope it’ll help 
Thank you for your answer. My fear was that maybe, this kind of diary would trigger myself… I don’t know. But your answer makes me realize that if it doesn’t work or if it triggers me, I can definitely stop. 
So yeah nothing to lose
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personally I do a nightly inventory of my day, what could I do better, was I thinking of others, did I fall into morbid thought or worry, do I owe an apology, was I kind and loving to others, etc. By looking at our actions today we can try and be a little bit better tomorrow. Remember it’s progress not perfection, this journey of growth and learning lasts your lifetime.
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That’s an excellent idea! I’ll add that kind of inventory to my diary. Thank you for your help
I have a daily diary and it has helped me tremendously. It has helped me keep accountable, but I can also see what behaviour was a sign of incoming relapse. And I hope it helps people with similar problems as me when they read it.
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Is it an online diary?
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Yeah, it’s a thread on here, it’s called: A look into the life of a crazy Dutchman
Ho great! I’m gonna look at it! Definitely convinced it will help me thank you
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No problem 
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Do what you have to do in order for you to stay on the right path.
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I just shared in a meeting last night about how helpful writing out my step six was. Step six is our character defects. The best part about it was looking to see which spiritual principle I could apply to each negative characteristic. I saw alot of the same spiritual principles coming up… self compassion, humility, acceptance for example. And suddenly it clicked… its not that I am this completely tainted human being full of evil shit… I have just allowed myself to be emptied of all the goodness and that is fixable, one day at a time.
So if you are going to list all your obsessive and compulsive behaviors make sure you look into a way to make it better, what can you apply instead, so there is some positive on that paper.
Getting healthy is hard work and I think your idea is a great one.
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I do step work with my sponsor… I answer questions from a book and write them down…
I have avoided step work for the decades I have been using alcohol and drugs…I thought I could do it without writing stuff down…never have been able to do longer than 6 months. It’s freeing to write stuff down,it’s honesty,and it’ll help to stay on a clean path.
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Thank you so much. That’s very good pieces of advice. I’m gonna start it right now 
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Thank you so much! All of you definitely convinced me