Six months sober this past Friday!!! 
I celebrated by recording another one of my songs. But I can’t share it here since I can’t add a video to my post. 
It’s about how I often behaved while drunk, and how bad it really got, especially in 2019 when I drank like four times a week. It’s a pretty sore point and I’ve been really ashamed of myself for a long time.
I never intended to share it with anyone because it’s pretty private, but I think the sixth month mark was a bit of an eye opener, and I decided to go for it.
And because I never intended to share it, it’s called “The Song Nobody’s Gonna Hear”.
I shared this on Facebook (a video where I sang it) to very positive reviews 
No inhibitions
I never drank in moderation
and for what I did last night
there’s no excuse or explanation
“Do you remember what you did?”
I don’t know what to say
can’t recall anything that happened
at that party yesterday
There are wine spills on the floor
the kitchen counter soaked in beer
best friend asleep next to a bottle,
didn’t know he was still here
We sat up until ten
in the morning
and tonight we’re starting again
I wrote a song
that nobody’s gonna hear
broken shouts into a void
with words for only my ear
I am casting long shadows
where I live in blackened night
my story’s one of tragedy
on these pages that I write
Laying broken on my bed
gotta reap what I’ve sown
because I spiraled into madness,
now I find myself alone
I sat up until ten
in the morning
and tonight I’m starting again
I wrote a song
that nobody’s gonna hear
I fell off that fucking wagon
now I’m halfway through a beer
No inhibitions or sense
crossing lines, a disgrace
and every time I meet my loved ones
I see shame on every face
Circles under my eyes
stumbling over thin air
all the looks I get are scathing
but I’m too far gone to care
Way too many shots to count
a glass of wine that tipped the scale
breaking down in tears at parties,
many chapters of my tale
I sat up until ten
in the morning
and now I’m starting again
