Six years ago i was sitting in my cell type room at a Veterans Hospital wearing only a hospital gown. I was coming down off what would be my last high from pain pills (or anything else) I was scared, not knowing if I would lose my marriage, family, job and everything else. The only thing I did know is that I would never attempt suicide again. 30 April 2018 is my clean date and I have never looked back. I stayed clean at first because being in the psych ward I didn’t have access to anything. Then it was because I was in rehab and didn’t have access to anything. After rehab I stayed clean because I wanted to. It wasn’t easy, NA and this forum are two things that helped me. That and a phrase I was taught in rehab, NEVER CRAVE ALONE When I wanted to use, I told someone. When the cravings hit, I called someone. When I didn’t think I could make it, I posted here. No matter how bad it got I made sure I wasn’t accountable only to myself.
Thanks to everyone here who supported me in my early days of recovery.
I use your phrase sometimes Chad but forgot who it was from, now I know! I love it! It’s such an important one. And I miss your happy gif here, where it balloons? Something in red and blue and dancing?
Congratulations with your 6 years Chad, happy to follow your footsteps!
