well, at 54 days sober from alcohol now, im realizing that i don’t wanna really be smoking weed either.
i’ve been smoking every evening just a couple hits off a bowl after practice with my bandmate (we used to get absolutely trashed together so as you can imagine, things have changed so much in these last 2 months of my sobriety, for the better of course!)
mostly a little weed feels good and is fun, but i don’t fully appreciate what happens to my brain and perspective of things when i’m high. i become more prone to anxiety and feeling self-conscious & even disoriented.
to take care of myself i gotta check what’s draining me. and this feels like it’s more of a curse than a blessing. so i want to experiment with not smoking weed for a while and see how that feels.
