I’m back, hi. Ha ha fucked op
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We all fucked up at some point(s). It’s in the past now and we can’t change what happened. What we can do is learn from our fuck ups. What we can change is what we do today. It’s good to see you Sarah. Glad you’re back. One day at a time for all of us. Together. 
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Hi Sarah, welcome back 
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Hi Sarah, what happened? Love and hugs as always 
Welcome back Sarah. Take it one day at a time and be gentle with yourself. We are all here with you
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Sarah…are you ok love?xx
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Hi sorry for the silence, I really stupidly thought I could moderate my drinking now (despite reading countless times that it never works)
Anyway I was back up to my usual levels and am now recovering from a 3 day bender.
I really really can’t do this anymore.I felt so amazing when I wasn’t drinking so why do I do it to myself!
So, I’m alive, sorry for worrying anybody. Xx
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I just joined and I feel this so much… I can’t do it anymore and I’m glad you are back!!! Just keep coming back and don’t give up!
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If you can’t do “this” anymore, what are you prepared to do to stay sober? What’s your specific plan?
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I don’t know, I’m thinking of going back to AA
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Welcome back 
I’m only back 4 days myself after about a month of relapsing. One day at a time. Good luck.
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Im so glad you came back Sarah, you can do this but u must first get into your head that you cannot control the beast…not ever. Many of us me included have tried and failed at moderating, its easier to quit fully imo. Sending love and hugs
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Yes I realise that now. 
I’m going to be checking in here again daily, you helped me so much before. Xx
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Im always here if you need me Sarah xx
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Hi Sarah, great to have you back.
It’s not stupid for believing you could moderate. I think a lot of us have been there. It took me about 8 months of fighting with myself before I accepted that I couldn’t moderate. And what a relief it turned out to be. As odd as it sounds, it’s so much easier not to drink at all.
Someone on here theorised that trying to moderate is a stage we need to experience for ourselves before we finally commit to being sober. I’ve thought a lot about that.
Hope to see you around X
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Welcome back. You can do this!
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Welcome back to your 3 days! our minds do trick us to thinking that we can manage moderation as we get some clean days in and start feeling better… its full of lies and hopefully now you will see through the BS when it tries to come knocking again.
For me i keep looking at others that do one drink once in a while and am thinking yeah i could do that… then i remind myself of what i was doing and where i was at – i know deep down that i will not be able to moderate and for that reason i try to keep that notion / feeling alert and vigilant.
Keep putting in the great effort - it does get easier 
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Welcome back, ive been constantly relapsing myself, back on day two, trying once again, love and strength sent x
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I would highly recommend a formal recovery program as a good place to start. White Knuckles only get you so far.
I walked at first. Every morning and every evening while listening to podcasts. I also came here multiple times a day. This helped me get to 90 days. Then I started taking martial arts classes every evening, and I practiced and trained every morning at home.
Be willing to try anything and everything. Nothing should be off the table. AA has always been my next escalation step, if I started to falter. So far O haven’t had to use it, but it’s there if I need it.
Come up with your plan, and get after it! You can do what others have done!
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I just hit my day one. I feel the same way that you do. Just know that you’re not alone. Keep going. There’s light at the end of the tunnel and it’s not the train the fact that we’re back here is a huge step.
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