I have to start from day one. . I was almost 6 months sober I drank so much within a week I was so sick and so full of regret but I got this one day at a time. . Just for today. . Here’s to another 24❤️
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Welcome back @Luula. If you look in yourself honestly you probably know why you relapsed. You drifted away from your sober connections, and you got starved for connection, and you reached out to a familiar (but fake and unhealthy) connection: alcohol.
Welcome back to the process 
Think about some changes you could make:
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Yes I think I did just that. . I left treatment and stopped attending a.a meetings. . Stopped the steps I gotta tap into my inner self and do some more healing have alot of childhood trauma. . That was a huge mistake falling off but I’ll get it back
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Welcome back. It looks like you know what works and doesn’t. Let’s get back into the stuff that works for success in sobriety. I don’t have all the solutions but I know what works for me and staying mindful daily with meetings and connection here is top priority in my daily life.
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6 months is a massive achievement @Luula. I know you feel bad about yourself now… I am just trying to quit nicotine and failed 2 days in a row! As with alcohol I made it to 90 sober days today and mostly because I realised I have no choice.
It really is hard to fight addiction… just try again darling.
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The healing doesn’t come before doing the steps. It can’t. The healing comes after (and during) doing the steps (with an experienced sponsor guiding you); it comes after the deep digging of the step work; it comes as a result of doing the step work.
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Yes that’s true I only got to step 5 but I still have all my work and read chapter of the big book also try find a sponsor again
Thank you for the kind words meand alot
Six month is alot but if I did it before I can come back stronger and you can too 
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Absolutely! But honestly think about it Lila… almost 6 months! And still you can’t take it for granted! Bloody madness!
Stay strong girl! xxx
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You made it 6 months though that’s amazing! Try to figure out what led you to relapse and deal with it. If you aren’t going to meetings or doing 12 steps give it a chance. Good for you to be willing to try recovery again. Hopefully just a speed bump
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