Feel free to reach out if you ever need to talk.
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Hey Nicole 
I am also from an alcoholic parental upbringing - other than the kind things that everyone has said, I would like to add that every person that struggles with alcohol here can relate to that feeling of shame that you mentioned.
For example, I felt shame because I used it to be in control of my emotions and make them quiet down…but when it changed into an addiction, I realized that I started feeling anxiety and more upset emotions if I -did not- drink during times of stress. Recognizing that the alcohol actually had the control was a very embarrassing thing for me to admit… especially when I had friends that could “drink responsibly.”
That shame can be isolating. It makes us not reach out and we disconnect with peers, friends and family that we love when we probably need them most. I am glad that you are here. 
And if you have a gremlin in your head that says that your recovery should be a clean line with minimal setbacks or, “Oh my gosh, I can’t tell them I already had to reset my timer.”
Please banish the thought. It doesn’t serve you.
Last year, I had to reset my timer 42 times… and everyone else here will tell you that they have reset their timers multiple times as well.
We’re here to heal together, not judge together. 
Welcome to the forums!
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Keep it up i am 387 days sober today really enjoying life
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Well I think telling people you have a problem could be difficult depends it wasn’t for me but I never cared what anyone thought of me anyways, it seperates drinking buddies from friends which can be difficult but in the end its the best choice you could have ever made. I would just focus on you and keep working on that, it doesn’t matter what others may think, you wanted a changed so you went with that, being courageous is nothing to be ashamed of 
welcome to the club hope you stick around and do some reading lots of amazing people in this forum with good hearts
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