I lay in bed all day not wanting to get up or do anything at all, even though I know there is a lot of stuff that I need to do. I get up and go to work, but anything else that requires me getting up out of bed feels like so much to me. I think a lot of ithas to do with the fact that I am back staying at the same place I was before I went to treatment and it’s very different sober. I wish that I had another place that I could go and stay, but I am so afraid to ask my family for help. I want to show them that I can do this, but I’m afraid they will reject me.
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That’s a lot to have on your mind. Welcome to the community and congrats on your sober days.
I’m glad you’re able to go to work.
Family doc might be able to help you or talk to you. Consider talking to him/ her.
There’s lots to get involved in here on this site that could slowly start putting some interest and positive interactions in your life.
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Thank you so much. I have to work because its required for my probation, and I think that it is something that will help me figure out how to be a part of the world again. I’m hoping that the routine will help me and also it gets me out of bed and the house.
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An important piece to battling depression is keeping a regular routine. Sometimes easier said than done I know.
Use S.M.A.R.T goals (look it up on Google) to create small attainable goals, like brushing your teeth, making the bed each morning kind of thing.
Definitely talk to your doctor. Depression is something to take seriously. Don’t let pride stop you from talking to your family, but go in prepared with not only how it’s effecting you but stats and information as well
I hope that things get easier and brighter for you.
No matter how thick the grey clouds seem, the sunshine is just above them.
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Hey there and welcome!! It can definitely be overwhelming when thinking about all the things - that usually causes me to be paralyzed with anxiety as well; instead - I do what @anon68572606 suggests and make smaller, manageable goals to get me moving!
You also mentioned your environment is stressing you out - is there something you can change? Posters of beautiful scenery or artwork that inspires you? Plants (monstera are fun!)?
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Welcome Queen. 
It sounds like a lot on your shoulders. I am glad you have work to motivate you and also help you integrate back in.
I know for myself just getting outside and taking a walk in nature can help me so much, if I can get myself out there. I know some days it is so hard to do that. Checking in here with us could be helpful motivation as well. Even just a small walk can help. I often struggle between just resting in bed and getting out, so I feel you.
Can you pick up a few more hours at work? It sounds like that is a positive motivator for you.
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