Hey everybody… I just moved to Florida after living in Buffalo my entire life and it’s been, difficult. I came to chase this dream life with my boyfriend and be closer to my dad since he lives here. I came here unemployed, fragile mentally and on the brink of relapsing which I have done once since I’ve been here in two months. The fact that I’m not financially stable, mentally or emotionally has been testing my strength and will to stay sober. It helps that I’m broke and broken to the point of not wanting to leave the house much.
I know no one down here except for my boyfriend and my parents, so loneliness is setting in. The urge to go to a bar just to meet some friends has been weighing on me. I’ve been feeling worthless since I haven’t had a job since April and keep feeling like I’m not good enough for anything. I just found a job that is perfect for me but I’m afraid of messing it up because my mind keeps going to dark places.
I really need to find some friends to spend time with without going to bars as an option. Sorry for all of the complaining and rants, I just feel so alone right now. Thanks for listening.
