It is Day 12 for me. Clean and proud.
I feel a bit empty tonight. Have thoughts coming and going about the past. But it has settled. I used to not be able to handle it at all, that is when I’d go for the green. However, I’m finding better ways now.
I must go to more and more meetings, as much as I can. I must use this app as much as I can.
I am just trying to stay in each moment. It is hard but I will get there. I just really don’t want to have to use again ever. It’s not worth it. The mental and physical damage is not ok. No more.