A year binge free. A year since I really acknowledged my codependent tendencies and started working on them, especially as it relates to my husband drinking and me feeling like I “had” to join in, like I “had” to sample his home brewed beers or I wasn’t supporting him. In fact, my timer says “Reset codep recovery!” A year of really taking responsibility for myself, my choices, and my behaviors. I have a long way to go yet, I have utilized online therapy in the past but I have my first therapy session in person next week to really dig deep on some issues, some traumas. I feel like I have gotten somewhat stagnant in life and need a kickstart, but you know what? I’m not drinking about it. I’m not relying on numbing myself anymore. To be honest, I haven’t really done so for a couple years and I’m very proud of that fact. So, yes, I’m proud of my progress! Remembering where I’ve been is helpful, reading through this thread and my old journal entries is always immensely helpful. Talking to my husband is helpful, too, since he’s seen me at my worst. That’s not me anymore and it doesn’t have to be me ever again, but I need and want to keep putting the work in, to keep myself connected to my supports and to keep taking life a day at a time. Thanks to all who have been here for me, all the PMs working through things (like the social media aspect of TS 
) and making me smile and laugh on hard days. I’m grateful for you.
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