Today is day one in a second attempt to stay sober from alcohol. I was sober for a little over a year and then convinced myself that I was able to drink in moderation. 2 days ago I believe I was roofied at a local event and it really freaked me out. I’m sad because I’m young and I feel jealous that most of my friends can casually drink. However I’m so thankful that I survived such a scary situation the other day. I feel like it’s a second chance for me to be sober. Any advice or stories to help me feel not so alone are welcome. Thank you!
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Whoa, that is definitely scary and I’m glad it sounds like you’re okay.
And I’m glad you’re here! I’m NOT young and I sometimes feel sad about not being able to drink…except not really. Because while I do, if I am being honest, miss the taste sometimes, I actually don’t miss the way I could feel my brain fuzz over and the way I’d start to slide towards a second drink. And a third. And then a stop at the liquor store on the way home to try and maintain a “nice buzz” that I honestly stopped being able to feel years ago.
I’m glad you are starting over and am cheering you on!!
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Scary! glad your here! Welcome!
paticipating here is a great start. 24/7
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Glad you’re here! This is a great place to find support and resources, as well as participate in a fantastic community.
This is essentially how I relapsed after three years of sobriety as well. “Just one won’t hurt” was a prevailing thought at the time. As it turns out, it did hurt.
What kind of sober tools and coping mechanisms did you use during your year of sobriety prior to your relapse?
This I can absolutely relate to! For me it’s a feeling of envy rather than jealousy, as I never really possessed the ability to casually drink in the first place. Wishing I had something someone else possesses only leads to resentment in my experience, something I’m still grappling with!
A scary experience can be a great motivation to change your life for the better, it was for me! Utilize this opportunity to make healthier choices.
I’m glad you’re here and that you decided to reach out for help! There are plenty of people here who are willing to listen and provide their experiences! Please don’t hesitate to reach out for additional support! 
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I was going to meetings the first time around and that really helped but tbh I was manipulating the program. I never started any of the steps or had a sponsor. This is something I’ll try to do different this time. I’m just embarrassed to go back to my old meeting but I know I have a lot of lovely people there waiting to support me. Thank you so much. Hearing that you can relate to some of these feelings makes me feel less crazy.
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This is amazing to hear! I’d definitely recommend returning and being honest about your relapse! Hopefully you’ll hear something said by someone else that resonates with you and maybe inspires you to ask for a sponsor!
I’m glad to hear you’re willing to try something new, especially something that has helped so many people, like getting a sponsor and working the steps!
There are other recovery programs like SMART recovery and Recovery Dharma as well, maybe read a bit about them and see if they sound like they could be a good fit for you as well as AA! No matter which recovery program you choose, this one included, being a part of a sober community of people who can empathize and understand the struggle of addiction will be very beneficial for long term recovery.
I’m glad I could help alleviate some of those feelings of feeling crazy, you are most definitely not alone! 
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This really hit deep for me because that’s exactly what’s kept me from fully accepting that I needed a change. I didn’t want to accept that I could do the normal things that friends and family around me were doing. To not have a drink with dinner or a few beers at a BBQ. Especially considering, I think many of us can agree, the first few drinks often are absolutely fine. Innocent. Going well, even. But it’s the lack of control to stop. And I would ruin events, ruin birthdays, ruin even just a good day. I bottled when I was sober and it exploded when I had just the one or two too many.
Anyways. Sorry for the wee ramble 
just wanted to say that I’m proud of you for reaching this point because I am right now learning (day 1.5) how difficult the decision is.
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Congratulations on 1.5! I totally relate to all of those scenarios. We got this! Hopefully we can soon fully accept that it’s okay that we can’t have anything to drink at these events. However they will be more consistently fun because we’re not sabotaging them for ourselves. Easier said than done I know but that’s what I keep trying to remind myself.
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@SoberGopher @ashleymariee Just being here and getting through those first couple of hours and first couple of days is a huge deal. It’s hard, but honest to god it is so so worth it. You can do this. 
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