Ur aura about u is so much more vibrant! U just look happier and more content! 
Nice shirt by the way too!!!
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Not quite staring into space before pizza oblivion at my fav Italian Restauarant in Los Feliz/Hollywood
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Facing the past with dignity. Best way to truly make the past the past!
Much respect for your calm, courage and honesty. Good luck today. 
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Sobriety has a calming looking effect on you. And you look great 
Love your meme game too.
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Thanks Eric. Very kind of you.
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Day 816!
I’m trying to practice being excited over almost anything positive. Since I’ve been sober, I may have only felt true joy & excitement a dozen times, if that. My theory is that by forcing a more positive mood on myself, I’ll appreciate things more. The truth is, since my mid teens I started to care less, and with the advent of internet over-stimulation, drugs, and alcohol, I drifted into the realm of anhedonia. It feels absolutely fake and disgusting to act like I care about things that I can care less about, but I’m sick of being a zombie outside of this smile. I’d like to be more compassionate and open. If all that makes sense go ahead give this video a big thumbs up and be sure to subscribe and share! Thank you, and stay tuned!
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As someone trying to crack YouTubes algorithm that gave me a good laugh!
I like your strategy!
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Hey Dan,
Damn, I was off last week too. Good to see you brother.
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Ah man I’m just hella random at times 
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Love this and can relate so much. so happy to hear!
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You look amazing!!! Great job!
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Thank you !
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We struggle. We fall short. We push through. We carry on. It’s been a hellacious couple of nights. Very triggered. PTSD/Anxiety/depression … Alone in a hotel all-night with angry guest. But I’m still here. I’m at going. I will get through it. This too shall pass… We pick ourselves up and keep moving. People are depending on me.
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I was in that mode today too. This too shall pass helped me get through it. Tomorrow is a new day. eat, get some rest. 
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Rest is the thing I’m not getting. I work overnight at a hotel… So I’m not sleeping much.
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Have you been eating? Take some deep breaths. When I get anxiety, it also triggers PTSD. Deep breathing and reminding myself just because it feels the same doesn’t mean it’s the same.
I forget to make time to eat. And I drink coffee or energy drinks.
Next thing I know… my anxiety is through the roof.
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Guilty. I forget to eat often. And I live in energy drinks.
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It’s easy to do. I know how it affects me, and I still end up doing it. When I’m working, it is really easy to not make time to eat properly. I drink energy drinks when I’m crabbing. I dont drink them when Im not on the ocean. Ive been drinking coffee. I love coffee, and I make it strong.
I’ve been trying not to work as much lately. I still tend to postpone making a good meal. Lately I’ve been working on my videos and painting. Hours go bye and I drink coffee without eating. I’ve been quitting smoking too. I quit what was killing me fastest first. The drinking. I didn’t realized how much of an emotional crutch cigarettes are. I’m not sleeping good. All these things add up. Now that I’ve had a good meal, and got some sleep. I can see it clearly.
I get paranoid, and it triggers memories that make it worse. PTSD. I can’t seem to make it past day three without smoking. They aren’t working for me anymore either. I’m feeling depressed too. This too shall pass!
I’ve worked nights plenty of times. Its hard to get good regular sleep. Make some time. Eat! I hope you feel better soon!
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