I’m trying to find a balance. It’s definitely a struggle. I have a day job, a night job and 3 kids in between.
I quit what was killing me fastest first. I like that wording. I quit all the drugs. And the drink and I walked away from my abuser all the same day. Honestly not sure which one would have killed me first. Cigarettes and redbulls remain for now. I’m thinking about trying again soon.
I know sleep is important for my emotional/mental health. It’s difficult with the nightmares tho. Time will help I guess. Or so they keep telling me.
Balance is hard! I’ve never been very good at it, but I keep trying.
I’m glad this place is here 24/7 and I’m glad you’re using it.
Eat something good for you.
Another beautiful morning in the desert.
Even more beautiful as it’s baseball Opening Day! This is a day I celebrate every year, as it marks the return of spring. I am very excited for what the Blue Jays could do this year. We don’t have our first game 'til tomorrow, though.
I wear this hat all the time, but it’s more special today. There’s about a dozen years’ worth of dirt, oil, and grime driven into this cap…and I love every grubby bit of it.
Watching the raptors game. Worked, prayed, talked to family, went for a walk, scrolling and reading around the forum.
Pretty good day, checking my Sober time counter and like seeing 44 days without gambling, 505 without nicotine, 957 without booze and my personal favorite 811 days without drugs, lets goooooo.
I never realized how much anxiety I was causing for myself while drinking. Blackouts and not remembering what happened the night before (every single day!!!). Trying to find my wallet keys, etc. (essentially trying to piece my life together every single day) and finally holding my breath opening the door see if my car was still outside (and in one piece). This was the start of every day on a good day. Don’t get me started on the bad days.
Things happen now and I think pfffffttttt, that is nothing compared to the trauma I put myself through for years. I now have a strength and calmness that people see but don’t understand…and never will.
sir, well done!
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