Am I beautiful.
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This cracked me up. I take a break from work to see whatâs going on here and this is the 1st thing I see. Thanks for the laugh!! You win best selfie of the day!! 
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oooo naturelleâŚ
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Go get it girl!! 
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You made the 900th post! Woohoo!!
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U can do it!!! U give me hope because I too have started over many times over the last few months. So thanks, KWood!!
Keep it going, Flame. U can do it!!
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Day 700
If you had told me back on day 600 what would happen between then and now â Iâm not sure Iâd believe you. A global pandemic and worldwide shutdown. The end of a long-term relationship. Moving to a new town. Starting over.
I could get wrapped up in these things, and I have been at times, but today I choose not to. Today I have these things to be grateful for:
- I am grateful to be able to afford rent, groceries, and other necessities - as well as my unnecessary creature comforts â in an economy where many people are struggling to make ends meet. I miss my house and my old town, but I am able to keep a roof over my head, on my own, without much strain. I am grateful to have solid, steady employment.
- I am grateful for my parents, as they have been of tremendous emotional support through what has been one of the most (if not the most) difficult and painful time in my life.
- I am grateful for my dog, Chief, who many of you know. Same reason as #2.
- Although I donât really have many âreal lifeâ friends anymore, weâve drifted apart mostly â I do count quite a few friends that I know from here on TS. No matter the distance, there have been a number of you who have been great friends to me and of support to me in this difficult time (and throughout the 700 days), so I am incredibly thankful for you as well.
- I am grateful that I am in the place that Iâm at in sobriety. I am grateful that the thought of a drink has not even come close to crossing my mind. Fuck drinking.
I have what I am trying to see as an opportunity here. At the age of 31, nearly 32, I have this unique chance to essentially start over entirely. It is scary, it is lonesome at times, and there are days where I am full of fear and doubt. There are still plenty of times where I want to run back to the comfort and security of my âold lifeâ, but those urges are stemming from uncertainty - I cannot make that decision from that place. I am doing my best and working with a therapist to change that fear into things I have not felt consistently for some time: joy, hope, and optimism. I must be patient with myself and the process. I must be kind to myself, which is hard for me to do.
and finally, I must ask myself: who am I, and what will I be?
Anyhow, thank you. All of you.
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I admire you Tristan. You are committed to coming from a place of honour and truth, to yourself and your health, in writing the next chapter of your life. Good for you brother. I am sure you will find your way, no matter what happens. Take care & never stop believing in yourself 
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100% agree. Since it was coffee for two, I went with our usual: Stargazer from Copper Moon. If itâs just me, Iâm going with my Death Wish super caffeinated coffee.
Either way, the Go Juice is flowing!
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A quote I read this morning resonated with what you have written hereâŚ
âAnd once the storm is over, you wonât remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You wonât even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you wonât be the same person who walked in. Thatâs what this stormâs all about.â
The changes youâve made over the past 100 days are nothing short of admirable-Although I stay quiet, I, for one, appreciate you telling your story here and have seen huge growth over the past year. Youâre doing good 
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Looking super real strong and beautiful there. Keep going strong!
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Weather climbing above 22°C in Berlin and Iâve been dealing with migrane, dizziness, weak spells, sweating, like some old fashioned lady (ahem ahemđł) - trade weathers with me!
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Congrats on 700 my friend @TMAC! You will be fine and awesome cause youâre a fighter. Humble thanks for the inspiration Tristan 
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