I fight it to man…its hard sometimes driving by the liquor stores I always went to…pretty bad when they have ur bottle on the counter when u walk in…uuugghhh…
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My first couple months sober, I’d walk onto my neighborhood convenience store, and find myself standing in front of the beer cooler, wondering how I ended up there, when the purpose of my going to the store was to get some milk or something else. I realized that the hundreds of repetitions of getting beer there, had burned the routine into my memory to the point I was acting on auto-pilot: open the door, two steps in, turn right, 4 steps forward, turn left, two steps forward, turn right, facing the beer cooler.
I was like a Marine on parade, the drill made flawless by habit. I’d think, “how the heck did I end up here, having to now engage my brain to say “no” to the booze in front of me?”
I fixed this by going to a different store. I once again had to be intentional in my actions, from start to finish.
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I too did this yesterday. I had pulled these out of the walking cooler…
… and was outside with a bucket of soapy water and the hose. Man, the thought of having a few beers on a beautiful day while cleaning the shit out of things came on quick and strong. I haven’t been in this particular position in sooo long that I wasn’t prepared for it, mental. Not the dealing with a craving, but the part about being productive outside. And the beautiful day.
Thankfully I had my trusty red bull. It passed pretty quick, like 20 seconds at most. And it never even crossed my mind to act in it. It was more like a psychology experiment or something.
You guys will get there too. @anon60334405, @Melvin, and @Dan531, you are three of the relative newcomers that I don’t feel I have to worry about. Y’all are doing all the right things, taking the next right step everyday. Just do what i did, look at it as a psychological learning experiment, see what you did and what you can learn from it, then file it away. That’s how we get stronger everyday.
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Oh, and here’s me after all that scrubbing and unexpected sunshine time…
I slept pretty well last night, for the first time in a few weeks.
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Thank u…everyone on here is so nice and encouraging…also a major motivator us keeping my marraige…was along 8 months of being alone…I know it’s only been 93 days but I feel like I dont ever wanna drink again
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Thanks Megan, thanks for having faith in me 
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Thanks Megan. I take a lot of advice from your posts on here, you’re appreciated!
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Thats so awesome!!! I’ve seen them live 4 times!! I got their autographs once back in 2010. But I was completely wasted when I did so I barely remember it 
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Looking good, shamrock! 
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i’m a huge fan of this look. i think men buzzing their hair off has been my favorite part of quarantine. 
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STEEEEVVEEEE!
So good to see you!
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Dude, you look great with the buzzed head!
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You’ve been hit by… a smooth criminal