Just one of those days where pain seems to be everywhere!!! I’m accepting emotions that I would normally push deep down or just avoid completely, I’m also letting tears flow freely which I would never do before this road of recovery.
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I know those days (don’t we all). You’re very brave letting yourself be vulnerable and go thru that. Well done, so proud of you! This will pass. Keep breathing. Hug your doggo 
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Ooo who doesn’t love a good cry. Let it all go 
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Mate, looking genuinely happy. Only sobriety can make us look that good, well done 
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No we’re certainly not alone. There’s another thread around here about “spouses who drink”. I comment on it once and awhile but there really isn’t just a thread where a lot of us commiserate like I thought I might find. But that’s ok. I guess I’ve learned that there is alcohol all around us all the time. And we are all responsible for our own sobriety. And we just got to work it one day at a time. I’m blessed to have the time I get with her before she passes out on the couch. And I get more room in the bed with all the cats and dogs before she comes in at 2 or 3 am. And we been married 37 years. 
What am I gonna do? At least she’s harmless and very predictable. And I was her drinking buddy all that time up until this year.
Thanks for letting me share.
We can’t expect anyone to change just because we don’t want to drink anymore. I think they should accept us. Good for us right? I’m feeling better.
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Cool 
pic Frank!
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Thank you! …
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I feel you here brother! My mind is my worse enemy in my sobriety! That “stinkin thinkin” is there more then I’d like. I thought it would go away after having a little time but im a alcoholic and i will ALWAYS be a alcoholic. Good stuff man, thanks for sharing
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As a drinker i thought I was mentally strong, i found out fast I wasn’t. Just buried all my feelings with the alcohol
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Day 20. Work 6:30-5 then off until Tuesday. Struggling with autistic son recently. Having issues at school… he has a loose tooth that is causing sensory overload and in turn having bad melt downs at school. Calls from the principal saying he flipped his desk and had to be transported to office. I would normally drink to numb the stress… but it won’t help anything or take away any issues. It felt good to have a good one on one talk with my son lastnight about his day using a stern yet positive approach. I am also taking him for flu shot tomorrow… He doesn’t know yet… but it is usually a huge ordeal. Please pray I have strength to work through these hurdles. 4 days off sound great but are going to be tough with my husband drinking at home and I HAVE to he strong and not numb my feelings, but face them. Praying no calls from my son’s principal today.
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Sending strength and positivity your way - that’s a lot to manage but you’re doing it! And sober!!!
P.S. I love hoodies and yours looks especially cozy 
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Good for you Kait. Autism is a unique challenge. I don’t want to say it’s easy - I don’t mean that at all - but I think autism is actually a space where we can be present, in the moment. Autistic kids have only what’s there, with them, and they’re not thinking about all the bureaucratic or social web that we weave around things. The kids are just there in the moment (wholly immersed in the moment and it can fly off the rails at times - but the point is, they’re very much in the present).
In one way that is exactly what we need in recovery: to sit in the present and be conscious of its pains and its pleasures, and to accept them without judgment, and without escaping.
That doesn’t make it easy. But there’s an unselfconscious wisdom to autistic children. I am sure that the two of you together will find your way. 
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I have an autistic step daughter and I have a dedicated program teaching martial arts to those eith special needs. It can be challenging at times and we need to be patient. That’s easy to say but NOT always easy to do. For me prayer is a big part.
As far as staying sober, focus of the person you want to be and the things you want. Its not being selfish its practicing self-care. Take time for yourself when you can to relax and de-stress. You’ve got this!
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Be proud of YOU for being sober for 20 days!! during all these challenges life is throwing you. Breathe and dig deep if you have to for that wonderful calmness sobriety brings us. You can do it. Praying for you and your wonderful son. You got this. Better than you ever handled it before probably.
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Part of martial arts in the age of COVID-19. At my school, we students clean the mats and pads after our class, as a sign of respect for the next class. We clean our own sweat…
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I clean all touch surfaces between each class(doors, counters, bathroom, etc). Every night the mat gets treated with an anti viral, anti bacterial, anti fungal, germicidal spray. Lots of work but it’s worth the safety of my students.
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