So I am currently in probation for my second dui. Now I feel my drinking came from a dark place that I’ve been in and possibly the anti depressants with alcohol didn’t help. I am not suppose to be drinking and now I am 4 months sober. I will be on probation for awhile. My question is “if I feel like I can have a kosher beer at a restaurant, if I know or feel that I won’t push it past that” I have hope that I can do that. Then I know I can drink non alcoholic beer and one beer with alcohol won’t help and I’ve come this far but I loved having beer with my steak or a margarita when I get Mexican. Should I keep these aside. This is my longest being sober and I need to do it for probation. After probation what if I self sabotage but what if I can controlthis habit?
There are plenty of topics here on alcohol free beers and mocktails. Most people here that try in early sobriety have relapsed, some have had no issues. Personally I relapsed when I had that sort of thing in early soberiety. I’m over 4 years sober now and can have a AF beer but I hardly ever drink them…
I wouldn’t mess around with anything that may cause relapse while on probation… Best wishes to you on your journey, keep going! This sobriety thing is actually pretty sweet 
…Sounds like your looking for a different group…this ones called " Talkin Sober"…but you knew that…
There is no “what if”. You can’t. If you had any control over your drinking you wouldn’t have 2 DUIs
No one ever got themselves out of a hole, by continuing to dig.
Play the tape forward. Maybe your 3rd DUI includes a manslaughter charge.
The only sure thing in avoiding another alcohol related incident is 100% sobriety.
Hi Emma! I’m glad you’re here.
For me, I struggled with the idea of not drinking again. It was the only life I’d really ever known.
My dad drove drunk and he died when I was 13. My aunt drank herself to death a few years later. The true cost of these addictions is death. With lots of misery and pain before that for not only us, but anyone who loves us or that we come into contact with too.
That’s a really high price to pay to chance having one beer. One drink never ends there for me. Sure, I’d done it once or twice to give myself a false sense of security, but then I was soon off to the races. It never ends well…You may be familiar with that considering your circumstances. If I’m trying to control the drink, it is already controlling me.
For me, I’m 3 months shy of hitting 6 years without a drink. The only way I’m going to make it there is by doing whatever it takes to end my day sober today.
I tried staying sober on my own accord. And it worked for a time, but I was repeating my same patterns. I was struggling finding a way to truly live a better life without a drink.
So, I finally surrendered to REALLY working a program of recovery in the halls of AA. I got a sponsor. I worked the steps. I attend meetings to keep me living in the solution. Just putting down the drink wasn’t nearly enough for me.
I’ve learned how to love life again. How to enjoy it. And most importantly, by working my program and with others, I set myself up to not pick up a drink today.
Recovery, true recovery, is worth it. It’s what keeps me away from paying the ultimate price by having that first drink. If I’m not working my program, I have no defense against that costly drink.
My life is SO different today and I am grateful. There honestly isn’t a single thing I’d rather do with a drink now. This sober life is pretty amazing. And you are worthy of experiencing that happy, joyous and free feeling my love. 
I am glad you are here.