I managed to keep food down after throwing up in the morning time. iced coffee helped the cravings a bit with the caffiene and sugar. if i can get through this 5th day without the alcohol then i will have been my personal best in as far back as i can remember. i usually give up on the 5th day thinking ‘well youve gone so long without it then one or two isnt going to hurt’ but i now know that if my lips even touch alcohol then il need more and more and will get back into the loop. and i refuse to let that pattern continue anymore. i want my control back. and my life. i have been having rapid heart races im not sure why? i have found myself dissociating and feeling very lost like i dont know who i am or what im doing but could i turn that into an opportunity to reinvent myself? maybe like designing a sim haha. i dont know. i still yet to have the test of going to a restraunt for a meal and not having a drink with it which i think il find scary because im used to seeing the whole room with drinks when im out eating and il be having one too. but if i can manage it then it would be another big achievement.
Hey Moll!
Heart racing is totally normal, especially in the early days! Your body needs time to adjust to life without alcohol — I had the exact same thing.
Try not to think too far into the future — that was way too overwhelming for me back then. In the first 50 days — and honestly still on tough days now — I had just one goal, just one to-do: Go to bed sober.
One day at a time isn’t just a saying — it really helps your mind to focus only on today. Nothing else. Just today.
Wishing you lots of strength — what you’re doing right now, showing up here and giving it your best, is absolutely amazing!
Do you have something specific planned? I would not “test” your sobriety at such an early stage if it’s not strictly necessary, to be honest.
Congrats on your five days!! 
no i dont have something as of yet it was just an idea of a step of building a new normality
Hmmm, I’m just speaking for myself, but at such an early stage, me testing sobriety would always end up in a huge fail. I would never pass the test! Maybe you won’t drink that same day, but the triggers will do its work in your subconscious and sooner or later you’ll end up drinking, cause “it’s just one”, and “it won’t harm”, bla bla.
I’m close to 5 months, yesterday I went for a drink with a friend, I had water and coffee, but he had vermouth. At 5 months, seeing him with that drink, I still felt that small itch I’m not allowed to scratch!
I wish you all the best on your sober journey! Stay connected! 
Maybe try ameeting might help they helped me stay sober wish you well
Remember this. Reach out when you need support. You can recover! Get thru this. Its not always this tough
P.s. stay safe and dont “test” your sobriety in its infancy. I was very cautious for the 1st 3 months. And still dont put myself in uncomfortable situations
Hi Moll. Congrats on getting through the withdrawals! Also, great job on using these boards for help. You are on a great path. We are all so happy to support your journey to a new and happier self. But remember, ODAAT. I hear you wanting to open the curtains to the future, and I get it. But that is dangerous for us newly sober peeps. There is no way you can know who or what you will look, think or act like in a few months/years time of sobriety. Sobriety involves changing the way we think of and perceive the world.
Also, your desire to prove to yourself and others that you are “in control” may be problematic going forward. Most people who really recover from this alcohol disorder find that giving up the idea of control is a foundational requirement. It also allows our minds to stop having to function in overdrive.
Listen to the suggestions from the people here, find an in person meeting with “friends” who are recovering, and leave the alcohol for other people to spend their money on. Just for today.
@Moll Have you tried any 12step meetings?
i dont know what that is
Alcoholics Anonymous or Narcotics Anonymous meetings.
Just search google for AA or NA meetings near you, should have 0 problem finding a group nearby.
The 12 steps will transform your life. 'Nuff said. 
How long have you had the heart racing? I have had that for the longest time, but mostly when I go to bed 
Well done on working on your personal best! This time you will make it OK
just since i have gone into recovery
Hi Moll! Congratulations on five days that’s amazing!! I completely share the same sentiments with you as far as learning myself and having the opportunity to reinvent myself are concerned so you are not alone. As others have said I would be mindful of testing your sobriety early on if it’s not necessary and try to fill your time with other activities that will keep you away from potential triggers. Side note- LOVE the Sims reference!!