I have been actively trying to quit drinking for more than a year, and I knew I needed to for a lot longer than that. The longest I’ve gone without a drink in the last three years without a drink was less than twenty days. I will admit I am at my lowest. I drink two to four drinks a day, and I feel like crap. I am going through something really difficult outside of the drinking and I’m having a very hard time coping. I’m seeing a doctor in a week or so but I’m posting here while I wait for some help. I feel very ugly on the outside (and on the inside sometimes too) fearful, and unworthy of love.
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Welcome!
I can very much so resonate with what you’re feeling. I’m not myself physically or mentally anymore. Just know it’s worth it to feel better, even though it might not feel like it at first. I’m on day five of my journey (again). Outside factors always drove me to drink even more, too. I hope whatever outside factors are effecting you end up with a positive resolution (at least for what’s best for you, I know we can’t control others).
Honeslty joining this group has helped, even if it’s just scrolling through others experiences when I am feeling low or like I may go grab a drink. I try and come here first, it’s helped a lot in my first week, I haven’t had a drink since Sunday.
Best wishes on your journey. You’ve got this!
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Welcome! You aren’t ugly on the outside even if you feel like it. Also you are worthy of every level of love. Stay strong and know this is a very judgement free community and we support each other!
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Maybe look out a local meeting might help ,they helped me stay sober wish you well
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Thank you guys so much. I’m really struggling with depression but I know each day sober behind me may help.
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What are you doing on a daily basis to seek outside support for your sobriety?
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Hi Josie and welcome here 
My coping strategy was drinking as well. It seems to help untill it didn’t. Finally it made me depressed, insecure, anxious, ashamed and more of that.
So yes, I recognize where you are.
We are our problem and we also are the solution 
Recognizing you have a problem is a big step in recovery and you did just that, well done!
And now?
Keep moving!
Reading and learning here on this forum! Many before you where in the same “boat” and has find their way out. Learn from there trail and error and built your own sober life!
If I can so can you!
We are a supportive group of like wised people from all over the world. We know where you are going trough, we have been there ourselves.
So if you crave? Come here before you give in! Talk, read, whatever! All allowed beside drinking and drugging 
See you around! 
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Welcome! You are not alone anymore. This place is amazing, lean on us @Josie33. Together we are stronger! 
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@Josie33 you are always worthy of love, ALWAYS. Day by day, step by step you are discovering that alcohol is the one which is not worthy
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Welcome to the community and thank you for sharing your story. You are far from ugly. Here, you are loved, not judged, respected and accepted by all. It’s good that you are seeing a doctor soon. In the meantime, I would come on here regularly because it really does help. You’ve got this!
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Reading quit lit and listening to podcasts where people share their journey to sobriety. Checking in every day for accountability. Avoiding situations where I feel pressure to drink.
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Great work! Keep it up!
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@Josie33 How are you doing today?
I drank last night. I had three drinks. I feel ok. That’s been a pattern lately. I wish I hadn’t but I’m having trouble finding the will power. My partner is a hardcore functional alcoholic and can be very type A. I felt stressed by the end of the day. I got a lot done but couldn’t relax. I reset my counter.
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